And when there is nothing to make the best of, when everything just slowly deteriorates and falls apart, there isn't much to look forward to. There is not much to be happy about when everything is just one giant fucking worry.
thats probably because like many anxious/depressed souls you're probably a serious overthinker. Your probably wearing yourself down over things that will probably take 5-10 years to actually come to pass.
Take out the word 'probably' and that is correct. My mind is almost always active, thoughts bombard me constantly. Different ones. Yes, I overthink almost everything and pointlessly stress out but it is so easy when simple things can ruin my mood.