Kyoshi

@Kyoshi, You realize that you have issues with self hate and the such, so then realize that you aren't as crap as you think you are. Don't let it consume you, don't lose to it, fight it!

@Zygen, I cannot improve, that is all there is to it. I am not cut out for this shit. I know that many want to think that everyone is equal and that everyone can do this or that, but that is not how things are. It's like how I cannot play piano, at all. There is no way I could do anything complex on piano, my coordination cannot handle anything like that.

@Kyoshi, The only thing stopping you is you right now. When I first started playing Guitar I got frustrated and thought I would "never" learn anything, or be able to switch between chords or anything at any kind of reasonable pace, and for a while, I couldn't, because for a while, I didn't try, i gave up, folded.

Until finally, I spent some time, and after a while, I learned some chords, and I could play them one after another at a decent pace.