Kyoshi

It's hard living with depression and feeling trapped with no way out, but the only advice I could really give to help you through it is to try to be more optimistic. It's probably nothing you haven't heard before, and certainly easier said than done, but a simple change of attitude goes a long way. It's hard to find the motivation to go through life when you don't see any light at the end of the tunnel, but at the very least you could make a conscious effort to reminder yourself that the light is there and you should still work towards it.

Yeah, I suppose. It is rough. My main strategy with that is trying to embrace my simple joys like gaming or whatever. I get disability and cannot drive, but I feel if I am not hurting anyone or getting in the way I should be fine, that is what I try to think, it is just rough getting through the mental blocks to get to that point of acceptance.

I understand, but I suggest you keep trying. The wonderfull thing about this forum is that almost everyone is like you and me. I don't know why, but I reconized it. So everybody understands you and can help you.