Dimitri Hammer

Well, my random bouts of depressive moments are getting more constant and I've lived a full life before I even turned twenty-five so I think by the time I'm in my thirties I'll go completely crazy and go into a deep depression. Nothing I can control, so I might as well have fun until then. I've been to several countries, I had my dream job and my soulmate for a short period of time and eventually lost both of those but it was enjoyable while it lasted.

True, but still thats not to say your depressive moments aren't going to get better. Heck I know I didn't have them to your extent, but I did have depressive moments that got worse and worse a while back, but I've had less and less of those now. Don't give up. If you need to I'm happy to talk to you and see what I can do to help.

Its your life, you can control it and nobody else can in the end, I'm hoping for ya till the very end though!

I'm sorry all that happened. I see where you're coming from, however. I'm not sure why, I'm not particularly depressed or any of that, but I myself can't see me living past my 40s, whether it be getting killed or suicide. Anyway, I hope the future holds something great, and maybe you'll find someone else to love. Good luck Dimitri.