Well, I believe god accepts me and im a dual personality person who craves war and destruction and turns myself into a little girl to get away from it so I can imagine rainbows and ponies and brush my ponies hair and stuff and just forget about the other side of me.
When Jesus died on the cross, he took all of our iniquities with him and while he was here on earth he established all the laws, The stuff you feel in your heart is the truth, Jesus thought a lot like we do!
But I cant blame you for feeling that way my friend, I've felt like such a failure today I imagined and planned to cut my wrists and die several times, But once Jesus holds onto you he wont let go!