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(I have a feeling this will be a very long post. :P)

 

What's wrong with me? Well, I was born with dyspraxia. Developmental Dyspraxia, if you want to be all posh. I wouldn't be shocked if you haven't heard of it, seeing as it's hard to get a diagnosis. Fortunately, I live in the UK, where it is much easier to get a diagnosis. So, what is it? Well, it's hard to explain. Different people have different symptoms.

 

Personally, I have problems with socialising. I don't understand what's 'right' and 'wrong'. I only recently starting making eye contact with people that weren't my parents. I find it hard buying items from a shop, or asking for a ticket on a bus. I also have sensory issues. I have a special flavourless toothpaste as mint toothpaste causes me to have pain in my mouth. Showering is also bad for me, as the idea of my hair being wet makes me feel disgusted, but I still do it. If it's too hot, I will pass out. If it's too cold, I feel sick. If it's too bright, it's so painful. If it's too loud, my ears hurt, and I feel very unwell.

 

My 'main symptom' is my poor hand-eye co-ordination, as well as problems with my muscle tone. Play a keyboard with two hands? You've got to be kidding! Open a bottle? As if! Use scissors? Well, okay, but I'll mess up badly. Open a door? Well, it depends on the knob.

 

Play a sport? I haven't heard anything so funny in my life! (Special shoutout to the people who had a go at me for not being able to do PE well. You guys are the GREATEST(!))

 

Despite all those symptoms (as well as others I have), I kind of... like it. I don't feel there's anything too wrong. I have low self-esteem, but that's because of my appearance and personality, not because of my dyspraxia, or 'hidden handicap' as they nickname it. It makes me different. Without it, I probably wouldn't have heard of it. Neither would my parents, or my friends, or anyone I know really. If me having it boosts awareness, that's terrific. I want a world where people can understand it and be aware, so dyspraxic people aren't thought of as 'stupid' or 'lazy'. If me having dyspraxia contributes to people being aware, and making this dream happen, wonderful.

 

Now, my faults? Sheesh, where do I start? Well, I have abysmal self-esteem. I feel like all the girls are pretty but me. It doesn't matter what height, weight, etc. they have. I have no problem with my height or weight, but my facial features, to me, are nasty. I think my personality is awful. I try to help people as much as I can, but when I mess up, I mess up badly. I don't want to hurt people, but I do. I'm also very emotional. I wasn't so much a year ago, but now the slightest comment hurts me, even though a year ago I would have laughed it off and forgotten it.

 

Well, that's about it. :P

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I'm always anxious, all the time (not "assffSd I have a test tomorrow" anxiety, more like "heart-gnawing soul-wrenching despair"), I'm always tired, I'm jumpy, I'm very curmudgeony, I hate alot of things, I have no patience, I'm the exact opposite of passive aggressive (I call it "aggresive aggressive"), I'm easily offended, I have trust issues with women (childhood abuse, plus being used by girls all my school career), I bottle my feelings, I have the self-esteem of a moldy potato, I'm very cheap, I have the tolerance for spicy food rivaled only by a 3-year old girl...

 

And those are only the things I remember.

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Well first off I'm not going to classify anything I have as wrong or something like that. :) I like the person I am!

 

I've 2 disorders that I know of being ADHD http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attention_deficit_hyperactivity_disorder which most of you probably know and DCD http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Developmental_coordination_disorder a far less common disorder impairing my hand eye coordination. Making me suck at writing drawing etc bigtime to the extent I've to use my laptop for homework and tests because at times, I can't even read my own handwriting

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Let's see, I have Asperger's and am extremely shy. I also have the terrible habit of being verrrrry socially awkward because of it. Back pains, and in the past, I had issues with controlling my anger because of Asperger's.

 

The other issue I have is that I have a very hard time sleeping sometimes because of back pains.

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I'm emotionally attached to 'Megurine - Luka' because it reminds me of my mother who died of breast cancer last year.

I also have OCD n a little bit of turretsyndrome, nothing special.

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@@WayzerSorry if this post seems kinda spammy or something, but I noticed you have DCD. If you didn't notice my post, I said I have dyspraxia, which is very similar (practically the same). I don't know many people with DCD or dyspraxia, so I just wanna say if you ever want to talk about it, you can PM me. Sorry if this is kinda creepy, I just don't know many people with it and I can't get my point across well. XD 

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Severe depression for the last seventeen years since my mom died, which has worked itself into some Anxiety issues. I have no idea who I am and I never really established an identity for myself so it can be insanely hard for me to find purpose or anyone to connect with so most of the time I just rot away in my room, alone. 

 

Have trouble holding relationships together, friends and loved ones. 

My diet is constantly falling apart even after I fix it. 

And I haven't really done anything with myself in six years. 

 

Oh, and I drink too much. 

I'm a fucking mess :D 

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I'm an extrovert with a (currently) small social circle

I like stuff people might call insanity (Like those tulpa/self hypnosis threads on sugar cube corner. I never did any of it myself yet but goddamn that's fascinating :V)

I like to burn stuff. In a safe environment and everything, but still.

I don't get close to people. Even when I have a BIG social circle I end up having very few close friends. Mostly because I keep them at a distance.

I tend to be ULTRA picky when it comes to relationships. None of mine lasted more than 3 months, and I've always been the one who broke up, almost always unexpectedly.

Rationality? What's that?

Aaaaaand I dunno. I guess you could list everything wrong with pinkie pie and it would probably apply to me too. I can relate so much with her. That's probably why she's my favorite of the mane6 :V

She is also fluffy and that's a big deal

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What's wrong with me? Nothing is ever good enough as far as accomplishment goes, If I succeed at something I just aim higher and have difficulty allowing myself to enjoy doing non-productive things. I'm getting better at it though even though I sometimes feel like I'm not achieving enough even though I got perfect grades in all my classes last year.

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It because that's the BS they feed you from a young age: That there's something wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with anyone (well, there are a few exceptions), but rather, we're all just unique in different ways.

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Besides my mild ADHD and loud personality not much.

I am a bit of a perfectionist and I really hate not having anyone to talk to. The thought of having no friends honestly scares me because I would feel so alone in the world but I have a large amount of friends so no worries.

In short I have not much different about me so nothing in my opinion is wrong with me.

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I have something called compulsive lying disorder meaning that i have problems with tell the truth a lot... Basically i lie a lot! and i can't help it. Think of it as like, Lying is your main way of speaking, It's just a part of your everyday life... That's what it's like, Lying feels normal to me even though i don't like doing it.

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Social anxiety.

I don't think a certain teacher took it seriously enough when I told its a problem and it's much more of a problem for me to have to do weekly presentations to the class than the other classmates. When I told him he did help me a bit, letting half the class not pay attention to me so it was only friends and himself listening but still..

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I know I've shown this before, but it always makes me laugh to show it off.
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I'm "double jointed" everywhere in my body. However, it's most prevalent in my hands. I have type 3 Ehlers-Danlos. It's a pretty lousy thing to have, but it always makes makes me laugh to freak people out with it. ^^

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Lets see here

Textbook case of Borderline personality Disorder

Ocd that doesnt involve being a neat freak

Chronic Depression

Strangely specific social anxiety

Highly Addictive personality

And finally sexual deviance that knows no boundries.

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im an introvert that wants to be an extrovert. 

All the friends I've made have been because they're friends of my friends and we just end up chatting in a group, I don't really like to go up to people and start talking to them, even though I want to.

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Well, I don't really know what love feels like (I'm serious, is it just loyalty to a person, or that you'd be upset if they died, or what?), I worry way too much about the future and think about the long-term way too much, I have basically lost hope for humanity, i'm antisocial, and I believe myself to be superior in all or most aspects to most of the people I meet, and I tend to rant a lot. I'm also an insomniac. While I tend to be looked on as an extrovert, I am usually an introvert, because I really don't express my true feelings about something openly.

 

Also, judging from the types of stories and fanfiction that interests me, and the way I think and perhaps the things I enjoy thinking about, I could probably be diagonsed with a mental disorder or two.

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