mega thread What are you thinking?

[Arrlong28 353]

On 2024-07-31 at 8:06 PM, ComanderZhabikKlavik said:

I noticed that I am very different from other people. I have noticed this for a long time, but today I realized that even among strange people I am stranger than they are. I will give an example of how I differ from others: I am a hermit in life. It's not even that I did not have friends before, but that I want to live in the forest far away from everyone. And never meet people. I have long been drawn to the forest and I will definitely live there someday.

Another difference between me and others is that I often think like a machine. Sometimes it is difficult for me to understand people. The way of thinking and the way of life of most people is alien to me. I also cannot understand some abstract concepts. I think life is simple, but people complicate it. The day before I read a fanfic, it was about a fighting machine with AI that ended up in Equestria. There, with the help of magic, they made a soul for her. Now she is trying to understand the way of life of organic beings. I feel about the same as this machine.

Another difference, although I'm not sure if others have the same problem, I can reply to private messages on this forum, but I can't write first. I managed to send a private message once, but it was very difficult for me. I couldn't even sleep after I sent the message. I was very worried about this message, I didn't know what they would answer. Although I only asked something about learning English in this message. I knew that I wrote this message to a good person, but I was still worried.

There are some other differences that distinguish me from many other people. I will not describe all of them, but I will say one more thing: I hate TikTok and similar apps. All TikTok videos are useless. Most of the videos lead to degradation. I saw several TikTok videos about astronomy and there were a lot of lies. Therefore, I believe that TikTok and similar apps lead to degradation.

 

Sounds familiar... Have you tried to see if you Have Asperger Syndrome? I felt EXACTLY like that before my diagnosis.

[Sparklefan1234 167,087]

I wonder if my Bestie, @Kyoshi Frost Wolf thinks I'm a "Squidward"? Whatever.😒

[Kyoshi Frost Wolf 41,173]

13 minutes ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I wonder if my Bestie, @Kyoshi Frost Wolf thinks I'm a "Squidward"? Whatever.😒

I think you're a Gary, you have such a way with words.  I wonder what I would be.

Also I'm thinking if I should start Avatar The Last Airbender tonight. I just bought the whole series for $25. :3 

[Sparklefan1234 167,087]

2 hours ago, Kyoshi Frost Wolf said:

I think you're a Gary, you have such a way with words.  I wonder what I would be.

 

I think you have my "Sparkle Sense" because I thought you would choose Gary for me! 😂 *Ahem* Meow! 
 

 

Edited August 2 by Sparklefan1234

[ZiggWheelsManning 8,815]

Bedtime, being that I night can overstay its welcome  

[ComanderZhabikKlavik 2,357]

3 hours ago, Arrlong28 said:

Sounds familiar... Have you tried to see if you Have Asperger Syndrome? I felt EXACTLY like that before my diagnosis.

I have taken Autism Spectrum Quotient tests before. Now I have taken two tests again. Here are the results:

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I know that you can't diagnose yourself based on tests from the Internet, so I can't know for sure whether I have Asperger's syndrome. I can't go to the doctor anytime soon to check whether I have this syndrome or not.

Edited August 2 by ComanderZhabikKlavik

[Arrlong28 353]

2 minutes ago, ComanderZhabikKlavik said:

I have taken Autism Spectrum Quotient tests before. Now I have taken two tests again. Here are the results:

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I know that you can't diagnose yourself based on tests from the Internet, so I can't know for sure whether I have Asperger's syndrome. I can't go to the doctor anytime soon to check whether I have this syndrome or not.

Well, my advice is to search for some

association of Autism Spectrum and speak to them. After a proper diagnose, and with some help, life of people in the Spectrum can improve a lot. 

A hug!

[DubWolf 17,061]

 Wish I had that "something" in life.

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I mean, I admit I know what other things make me happy in life, but I don't want to feel incomplete the rest of the time.

I've been saying this for years now. Maybe 5 or 10 whole long years later I'll stop...

 

[ZiggWheelsManning 8,815]

The thought of having anything.  

@DubWolf

Was wanting to know more about this "something".  

[Starlight Serenade 2,443]

There is a lot of work that needs to be done this week.

[Captain Salty Scribbles 4,173]

12 hours ago, DubWolf said:

 Wish I had that "something" in life.

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I mean, I admit I know what other things make me happy in life, but I don't want to feel incomplete the rest of the time.

I've been saying this for years now. Maybe 5 or 10 whole long years later I'll stop...

 

Something? Man, you have wings. That's very something =]

[DubWolf 17,061]

1 hour ago, Crypty Scribbles said:

Something? Man, you have wings. That's very something =]

I enjoy that very much, no doubt. Annoying however I have to pay for that. Plenty of people who have started just a year or two ago are being paid to fly. One class over is earning extremely well to fly the fun stuff.  I started training 7 years ago and counting. Seven. Way overdue and way above average.

Would love if I had something else to compensate for that shortcoming. Another good job, no debts, the girl of my life, respect, God, have none of that. I haven’t received what I feel I should have earned already.

Edited August 5 by DubWolf

[Luna the Great of all the Russias 2,921]

I do not like how searching for "Cyberpunk" now largely returns results of the game Cyberpunk 2077, instead of Cyberpunk more generally as a genre.

[EpicEnergy 22,984]

Monday is over, my appointment falls on a Tuesday which is tomorrow, this nightcore song I'm listening to is fire, I have lots of thoughts racing through my mind, probably going to be hard to sleep tonight, what should I type, and more that I simple cannot acknowledge because they fly around in my head too fast.

[Captain Salty Scribbles 4,173]

8 hours ago, DubWolf said:

I enjoy that very much, no doubt. Annoying however I have to pay for that. Plenty of people who have started just a year or two ago are being paid to fly. One class over is earning extremely well to fly the fun stuff.  I started training 7 years ago and counting. Seven. Way overdue and way above average.

Would love if I had something else to compensate for that shortcoming. Another good job, no debts, the girl of my life, respect, God, have none of that. I haven’t received what I feel I should have earned already.

Oh, man. Getting older people tend to re-evaluate their life. Understanding what you want is the first step to reach it. I wish you to find what you seek. You're cool and I believe in you ^•^

After 7 years of training can't you be an instructor?

[DubWolf 17,061]

19 minutes ago, Crypty Scribbles said:

Oh, man. Getting older people tend to re-evaluate their life. Understanding what you want is the first step to reach it. I wish you to find what you seek. You're cool and I believe in you ^•^

After 7 years of training can't you be an instructor?

HAH!

I have been training for that instructor certificate for 3 years. Probably 10x longer than the average entry-level instructor....

It's very multifaceted against me. It's not just me. I'm fine. This industry does poorly to help those at the bottom, cost and experience wise. Instead it puts up a pretty high barrier to entry in the form of limited jobs (because of high experience required) and still high requirements for those "low-time" jobs, thanks to insurance. I'm just asking for a job flying that tiny little 4-seater around like I have been for the past few hundred hours for starters. It's not a jet!! That shouldn't be unreasonable!!

"Pilot shortage" my butt.

Edited August 6 by DubWolf

[Envy 6,110]

Hoping that tropical storm isn't too bad once it comes up here. Only been here in the NE for a month and a half and of course it took only that long for that rare tropical system to come up here. Ugh.

@DubWolf I'm sorry, that's very frustrating. You wouldn't be the first person to reconsider their career... Look at me, I'm doing just that. It's so weird to no longer be going into music... I mean look at my avatar, signature... I've built my whole image around music... and that's not just here. Strangely I'm not spending a lot of time grieving this change. I thought I would. But I have a new outlook on life now, so things are different.

(And since my avatar is supposed to be a pony version of me, does that mean I have to change her cutie mark?? I don't want to think about... lol)

But maybe unlike me, you'll keep going and succeed in your dream!

[Captain Salty Scribbles 4,173]

9 minutes ago, Envy said:

And since my avatar is supposed to be a pony version of me, does that mean I have to change her cutie mark??

You could create a new pony representing new you.

[Iforgotmybrain 4,834]

AMD's Zen 5 release seems to be very... whelming. Minor improvements over Zen 4 with better efficiency. Not a bad product and certainly beats what's happening to intel currently at least.

[Tropical Melody 5,698]

Which YouTube binge-watching rabbit hole shall I go down today

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[Starlight Serenade 2,443]

Me: (watching a lecture on segmentation and perceptual mapping.)

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Also me: (voice over) "My Little Pony is filmed in front of a live studio audience".

 

[Interstellar Sketch 845]

I'm thinking maybe I should go to sleep earlier.

[ComanderZhabikKlavik 2,357]

I'm thinking about what kind of drawing to draw for an Art Contest.

[Arrlong28 353]

I'm thinking I'm not going to live past 40 years old. I'm thinking I'm not going to have a partner, ever. I'm thinking how dificult is to open yourself to soeone else when you are in the autism spectrum and can't work. Sometimes people just tell me at my face that I should drink bleach and die for being a "Parasyte" and I cannot punch them in the neck...

[Captain Salty Scribbles 4,173]

59 minutes ago, Arrlong28 said:

I'm thinking I'm not going to live past 40 years old. I'm thinking I'm not going to have a partner, ever. I'm thinking how dificult is to open yourself to soeone else when you are in the autism spectrum and can't work. Sometimes people just tell me at my face that I should drink bleach and die for being a "Parasyte" and I cannot punch them in the neck...

When I meet emotionally complicated challenges like doing things I'm supposed to do but can't I'm imagining a roleplay game for myself, like I'm a robot or an alien from another world who should hack, study and imitate human interactions with application of pure intellect.

When the world goes to the shit and comes a wish to give up I do the same, I imagine that I just bought a video game, cool and challenging and loaded in fist level, and everything happened before is just setup of the plot, everything happened before didn't happen with me but just a background story of my character. Yes, it can be dramatic but who wants to play a character with 100% happy origin? The best part of the plot is ahead and I'm going to squeeze the max achievements and see the great final of awesome story I'm only going to write.

Cheers, buddy. Life is a game, don't forget to have a fun ^•^

Edited August 11 by Count Gribouillis