FlutterSky

Sometimes I don't even know why I like it. It just seems to appeal to me. I write about it. I draw about it. I've even had dreams about it. Maybe I keep watching for the negative comments I get on it. "You act like such a little kid." "That show is for 3 year old's." "That shows stupid." "Oh, yea, the power of friendship. Whatever." Maybe it's because i'm depressed. I see these ponies and they somehow make me feel warm inside. I wish I could reach my hand inside and be dragged into the happy world itself. Escape the world around me. Escape the hate. The dreadfulness. The feeling of water to disappear. Maybe it's because of my lack in friends. In truth, I really only have one close friend. And even then, I only made friends with her this year. I see Pinkie Pie and I think to myself: She's so social. I wish I could be like her, not to shy and afraid of life. Be friends with everyone in town. Maybe because of my bullying in the past. I watch and the the CMC get bullied by others every so often. And I wish I could of been like them. At the least trying to stand up for myself. Not just let it go on, do nothing about it until some years after. Their a group of good friends, never having to worry about others. While I'm on alert. Trying to avoid those and hide in the corners in despair. Sometimes I'll sit and think. Just like I was doing before I came on here. And I think to myself, You're so stupid. Watching ponies. Don't you have anything better to do? But then again... What would I be without My Little Ponies? Just more of a loser than I already am. Life thinks I'm stupid enough already and just keeps hitting me with a stick. So, I really don't know why I cling to ponies. Maybe I just hope that someday they'll help me turn my life around. And maybe inspire me even more.