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Oh god i just can't do this anymore...
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Thanks, i just... i just feel like i am having a breakdown, i had an anxiety attack and it has been really affecting me, i have been crying for last 30 minutes, but my head and neck are very sensitive lately and the muscles in my head and neck really tend to tense up by default because i am following a therapy where i am weekly going every friday, i go there so i can get a treathment for my headaches and my overall tight muscles in my head. But after every appoint there the doctor said that pain is going to be common in my body because of the changes that are made. But... My head and neck are really affected by that, and because i am freaking so much out over my anixity attack, these very muscles are tensing up to the extreme, it just putting so much pressure on me that i am just...
I am just so scared, because in these panic moments i either don't talk to anyone and try to contain myself, or i end up going online in a panic spree, but when i try to contain myself, i end up getting more desperate and panic toughts as it goes own, it leads to bad things, very very bad things if it goes to far..
Medical treathment doesn't seem to work, i am going to so many doctors and therapist, but even medication doesn't seem to help againts this, my anixity disorder just.. plays part here.
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It is one of those moments again where I am once again in this sad and just over desperate state, where no one will either want to talk or understand me..
It is that moment again where I am going to break down from all the misery, i curse my autism and my anixity disorder, my misophonia and all those other things that are destroying my life...
Why do i have these things? Just why...