Rafa Stary

Time to get something off my chest. I honestly participated in the art contests for the following reasons.

1: it was something new for me, a new kind of challenge and experience, I've never participated in an art competition before.

2: I noticed that here on the forums there were artists, but I felt a very small presence of them (which was honestly more because I didn't explore this side of the site that much), so I saw the contest as an opportunity for me to try to encourage the forum's artists, make them show a greater presence, participating, showing more of their arts, etc., I like to see several different styles of art, so after the March contest I expected that more would appear for the April contest, and it happened, and that left me very happy, but also satisfied, because I started to pay more attention to the artists on the site, and they do have a big presence here, and not only that, but they also help each other a lot, this basically connects with what I said before about I didn't care much about this site a few months ago, only then I realized how people here really are very friendly with each other and are really nice, the same goes for the artists.

I tried to help some but I saw that many know very well what they are doing and know much more about what they are working on than me, they definitely know how to get by very well without me, my intervention is no longer necessary, so, I no longer intend to participate in the art contests, as I am satisfied with what I have seen so far, I just want to appreciate other people's arts now, I no longer see the need to try to do anything about it but I will always be there to help, I won't refuse to help, but I will no longer participate in something like a Art contest, where I need to make a lot of people see my art, I actually didn't really like participating, and this connects with a third reason for me to have participated.

3: It was a test of the opportunity for me to show my arts, to appear more like a artist, something I don't usually do, I have a problem with this, I don't like doing this, I entered the contest, I tried to make free drawings for other members, posting some joke drawings in a few threads, everything to see if that would change me, and it didn't, I still don't like showing my art to different people, I don't like promoting myself, don't get me wrong, I have nothing against people showing their art to others, promoting themselves, if people want to show my arts for others, it's fine with me, some use my drawings as their profile pics and I don't see a problem with that.

The problem is with me, I don't like whem I'm the one doing that, when I do that, it's in a sneaky way, for example, here I usually post my arts more through the status updates, on derpibooru I post at times when few users are online, so very few people will see them on the main page, etc...I like my arts to be rare, I don't think everyone needs to see them, I prefer them to be discovered out of pure curiosity. Because of all this, I will stop participating in art contests and also try to not appear as a artist, at least not very much. I thank you all for the support you give me, the compliments etc, you can continue praising my arts, sharing them with others if you want, do what you want, I will appreciate it, but that's just my decision, the artists on this site are doing just fine without me, and don't worry, I'm fine, I love my arts and I'm proud to be an artist, I just don't like to expose myself too much, I want to pass myself off as a "normal user" from now on, which I think is good too, everyone here is cool, it doesn't matter if it's a artist or not, thank you very much.