StaryStory

There's something I need to tell. I wrote a big text talking about my thoughts on AI. I was planning to share it here, but I decided to not do it. The text got too deep and more dramatic than I wanted it to be, and even if I tried to remove these elements from it, some parts of it were still quite dark and even included researches that weren't related to my opinions and that led to other complex subjects that weren't exactly related to AI.

The only thing I'll be sharing here is the reason why I wrote the text. On Tuesday (January 28), I tried to watch a livestream of a channel I really liked. In this stream, his focus was testing China's New AI Deepseek. I naturally dislike AI, but I tried to give it a chance just because it's a Youtuber I really like. But while everyone in the stream was enjoying it, I just wasn't, and after some minutes, I couldn't take it and I decided to quit the stream. Then a few minutes after I did that, out of nowhere, I started to go through what I believe to be a panic attack. I was having a very bad feeling and then started to cry for no apparent reason. Fortunately I was able to calm myself down quickly, but at the time I felt like my insides wanted to release something. And even though I had calmed down, the bad feeling remained for at least 1 hour.

I never felt this way before, not this bad, and definitely not in these 2 / 3 years since all this AI stuff emerged. I was so used to seeing it on the internet, what caused this to happen to me?

And to make it even weirder, in these last 2 days, I've been feeling sick, it's rare for me to get sick. I started feeling sick on the Wednesday, just a day after the panic attack happened. I really don't know if it's related, but it's a huge coincidence if it's not related then.

Anyway, I have so much to tell about what exactly I think about these subjects, but I prefer to stay positive and enjoy what I have here in the forum ~☆