Dawnshine Wonder

Man, I also don't trust the government any bit and I also lost my faith in a lot of things in these latest years. I understand if you lost your will to live, I already went through such experience or at least something similar to it, actually, to this day sometimes I still question myself why I'm living.

But seriously, if you belive you have depression, don't let it beat you. I tell you this because I already had depression before, I went through a full year where I kept hating on myself, being hopeless and hardly trusting anyone, just thinking about my death multiple times. But, I realized that nothing everything was terrible, there were still good things around me, good things that encouraged me to beat my depression. I'm not saying that my depression is really gone, I'm not sure if I got rid of it, but I'm sure that I at least managed to find a way (or ways) to fight it. 

There are a lot of things in life that annoy me and make me disappointed, they can truly hurt me. But there are also a lot of things I love and enjoy, if I try to at least focus on them, that can for sure bring me some happines. But mostly important, there's something for me to go after, a goal, something I want to achieve in my life. I have made many mistakes and many of them I may not forget, and this can make me very sad, but I recognize that I made good and admirable things. This convinces me to continue fighting for something that I want to see alive.

I ask you, don't you think the same about you? Don't you think there are things in your life that you still enjoy? That bring you happines? Don't you have a goal? Something you want to do and complete in your life time? 

I believe thinking about these things can relive your will to live, I think it's what makes me want to continue trying, there are so many bad things in this world, but the things I consider to be good are enough to convince me to continue, no matter if I expect our future to be dark, I'll keep fighting.

And also, you'll never accomplish everything alone, you'll need help, you have friends, don't you? People who like talking to you, people who care about you, do you really think you're alone?

If you're reading this, you don't need to trust my words or anything, you don't need to see me as friend, I'm just a messenger, all you need is to simply trust yourself more, your good side, your good ideas, your good memories, it doesn't need to be a lot, but the necessary to allow yourself to keep trying, don't give up. If I could escape from this ruin, if I can fight it, then you can do it as well ~☆