I see myself as one who can have great visions of what something should look like when I think in terms of, say, video games, starships, and other things like those. And that's great. Most of what I see I consider to look brilliant, and it might be brilliant, but...

I can't draw, and never have motivation to try. And I don't usually have motivation to explain these things, or I can't word the visions correctly. Other times, I feel as if the thing will never happen.

Honestly, sometimes this kills my mood and I become downcast, sad... And thinking about it makes me feel worse. (During the feeling, I think of sad situations that could happen in the future, and that adds to the effect of sadness.)

This has led me to believe that sometimes I might actually have some mental illness, even though I know I don't have one. It kills me to see things that won't happen, even if only I think it's good...

Sorry. I just need to rant here. I'm feeling like it right now, and most of the time, I don't want the feeling to go away, even though it rips me up on the inside. (That's part of the idea that makes me think I have a slight mental disease.)

Anyway... Help..?