I'm sick I've been hiding this for too long from myself and from everyone.

I clop.

I dont want to do it but because I'm weird I do it I want to stop it but I cant. Its been depressing me because I dont want to do it but I still do it and it angers me so much. I feel so weak when I cant stop myself. I feel that Im just a pretender who keeps up the good image and then does bad things when no one sees.

I wanted to deny that I do it but it didn't make me feel better. I've been trying to stop it but It's hard for me.

I just want to stop myself thanks. I dont really want to talk about this thing anymore I hope this helps me stop it. And I can forget this crap.