To The Gentleman Of The Forums....
Entry posted by Ice Princess Silky <3 in Friends
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I've been meaning to write this blog, like a year ago.... but I keep postponing it because the emotions I attempt to convey evade me and trickle through my fingers like water escaping through cupped hands. I fail to capture this, but I shall try.
I have made countless of connections on this beautiful platform as of 2014, thanks to Skype. And there are a few gems that glisten and stand out.... or their glow just simply doesn't expire...
And as mentioned before how there are deep connections you can have online, sometimes, you and a complete stranger might share a similar "vibe," and through time and shared challenges you begin to see the many consistent aspects to your personalities as they unfold together. And your dynamic either flow or they clash.
Their good sides. Their bad sides. Who they are under pressure or happy times. It all reflects in this dynamic and eventually leads up to who they really are. Even if you do not know their full name. Or have casted a gaze upon their visage... You still have captured an "essence" of who they are. An essence otherwise elusive to the common observation of people in a physical space.
This one is particularly evasive to me. It is so beautiful and pure... that it restores aspects of my humanity that I had thought to have lost long ago.
And no, this is not about @Sir Hugsalot because this is a very platonic connection that I am speaking of now.
While, finding romantic love in @Sir Hugsalot through an intense connection that grew over time as friends was absolutely life changing and even world shaking..... having love of a platonic nature with a friend is enriching on such a different dimension. And I highly encourage others to seek it out. It has contributed immensely into my changing for the better as a person, despite the craziness of the world. The world can be such a challenging place and it is so easy to get lost and to fall into a dark space without the help of a caring friend... Sincere care. Not just formal words on a screen.
So, here is my 'thank you' letter to the Gentleman I know in the forums. Classy. Forever kind and respectful. Patience of a saint. Non-judgemental. Can offer a third opinion (Second opinion will always be @Sir Hugsalot 
) and I can always trust that said opinion will be as objective and unbiased as possible. He is always calm. Regardless of circumstances. In a way, he is like a Godsend.
So here is my letter to you.
I just wanted to say.... Thank you.
Thank you for existing. I am grateful for the presence you've offered during the darkest of times for me when my darling and I were facing heavy challenges in life and you were there to smile patiently, offer some light humor, some good advice or exchange memories in the form of art for us. You have shown me a dimension of friendship to which I am forever grateful for.
As people, we are vastly different. Opposing teams and nothing in this world would probably have brought us together in person due to our vast differences. Yet we connected as friends in a way that surpasses all of that. Through oddly ridiculous means lol
The sense of peace and kindness has been so impactful to me that I have even had dreams about you! And just like in our dynamic online... I am very soothed by your presence.
In one of the dreams, I was rushing through a crowd, lost and limited for time due to the deadline of a project. But there were some challenging individuals trying to thwart the progress of it from afar just for the sake of their ego and feeling power of sorts...
Needless to say, it was very stressful. There were so many people and I had to move through them to find my way out. But I was lost and overwhelmed.
As I was walking by a group of people, there you stood amongst them. In your British attire while wearing a masquerade mask ....of a fox... (?)
I do not know why you emerged in my dream with the mask of a fox. Perhaps because I have never actually seen your face. But a fox? Foxes are associated with guile, trickery, cleverness and cunning. While you are incredible witty and very intelligent... I do not see you with the guile or the trickery of a fox.
At least the mask was still quite mysterious and elegant. So it matched the dinner suit quite well.
You paused as you saw me, you did not know it was me, but our dynamic was the same as it is online, so there was a sense of familiarity and comfort despite not knowing each other.
Then, you made a commentary about something as you smiled patiently. And I couldn't believe it, you offered valuable information out of the maze of people that I was stuck in -- and it was not intentional! You did not know it was me. You simply make curious and intelligent commentaries that serve me in some way.
To which, it accidentally, indicated valuable information towards the exit! You did not even mean to. But it was just in your gentle and curious nature to accidentally inform me of something I would not have known otherwise...
There was another dream in which we met and you did know it was me. So we got together and had a deep, philosophical conversation over shared tea and coffee. It was so vivid. So healing.
I remember being SO excited to have met you that I kept telling myself, "Wait til [name of our mutual friend] finds out that I've actually MET him -- his mind is going to be SO BLOWN!" SQUEEE!
And I had literally awakened that day with that feeling still with me -- wanting to hop online to tell said mutual friend about it even though it never happened!
There are so many aspects to friendships. Online, in person, in school, maybe a pen pal? Regardless, sometimes, your friendship can touch someone in such an abstract way, that meeting is not even necessary to see the impact and change. I think in this digital age we're learning to take these things a little more seriously. Either way...
All of this just to say... thanks for being you and for existing. I know you're humble so you do not see the big deal. But magic hides in the mundane. Even if you do not believe in magic, the phrase still stands true in my heart. Goodnight.
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