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11/14/2024

Starlight Serenade

Entry posted by Starlight Serenade in Life Updates

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Hello everyone,

I hope you're doing well.

I wrote this blog in advance and scheduled it to post automatically on 11/14/2024, as I anticipate my free time to diminish over the next few weeks.

I'll keep things concise as my tendency to ramble has led me to being ignored and/or receiving negative comments.

I've made the difficult decision to remove my previous blogs. I experienced moments of dissociation and was not in a great place mentally, which is why I did not feel comfortable keeping them up.

My program's material is getting harder, so I will be dedicating more time daily for reviewing. Previous plans fell through so I will be doing a lot of running around for work.

A significant part of today's blog is dedicated to my sister's birthday. She was six years older than me and later this month, it will be my birthday.

I will reach the same age my sister was when she passed away.

When we were growing up, my sister and I talked all the time about fixing the old house that we lived in.

We grew up poor, but at least we had each other and dreamed together.

Unfortunately, due to various circumstances beyond my control, it looks like I cannot fulfill that dream on my own anymore.

I'm starting to learn to accept certain aspects about my life. As time goes on, I've begun to realize that it's becoming more evident that my time here is limited.

I feel that life has undeniably become worse over the course of the past few years since she left us. Despite all the setbacks, I remain hopeful.

Many have often asked me how I manage to stay positive and keep going.

To be honest with everyone, I'm not really sure myself.

All I know is that I have to keep going.

Starlight

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Iforgotmybrain
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I'm starting to learn to accept certain aspects about my life. As time goes on, I've begun to realize that it's becoming more evident that my time here is limited.

I'm not entirely sure what that means in this context, but I hope you're okay. You can always message me to vent if you need to, or if you need to just talk.

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Arrlong28

I send you a big digital hug.

If you need to talk feel free to message me. But I'm in low mood so I don't know if I can be of much help.

 

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On 2024-11-14 at 7:07 AM, ComanderZhabikKlavik said:

Sorry to hear that. I hope everything will be okay with you.

 

On 2024-11-14 at 4:32 PM, Iforgotmybrain said:

I'm not entirely sure what that means in this context, but I hope you're okay. You can always message me to vent if you need to, or if you need to just talk.

 

On 2024-11-14 at 7:17 PM, Arrlong28 said:

I send you a big digital hug.

If you need to talk feel free to message me. But I'm in low mood so I don't know if I can be of much help.

 

 

To everyone:

Thank you for the kind messages, I appreciate it.

I'm sorry for making many of you worry.

I'm logging in momentarily as I took a few days off from the last time I was here for my mental health as it hasn't been so great and I had some IRL issues come up recently. 

I had a lot of stuff come up, particularly family issues the past three days - today especially(I drove around 100 miles and was out all day)...so tomorrow morning I will be trying to catch up to a lot of coursework that I am behind on.

Truth be told, there's a lot of material that I do not understand and I'm going to try and figure it out tomorrow as the due date for an assignment that I have not started on is in two days.

I realized that I have to pace myself tomorrow while I'm figuring things out and take breaks for my health.

I will try to respond back to the direct messages that I saw in my inbox and reach out when I have the chance during the next day or so.

Again, I really appreciate everyone's kind words and support during this time.

Star

 

 

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