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StoryStorm

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Wow has it been a rough past couple months. As I phrased it in my last post, addiction is not magic, but sobering up can feel like a miracle. After I made my last post, my relapse got worse. I was getting high and drinking multiple times as my relapse evolved as per the course. For the most part, because I naturally do well in school, my law school grades have still been B's and a few A's, but one class in particular was neglected and I might fail it. Regardless, I graduate the same year, and it'll be a small inconvenience and hopefully finally learned my lesson. I moved out and moved back in with my parents because of my school payments. I've dealt with anxiety and withdrawals...but putting down the bottle cold turkey was a miraculous step.

I went on a 24-hour bender. I began drinking with an ex the night before having too many shots of vodka and two tallboys. I slept there, woke up the next day, and just began drinking again. I'd fall asleep, wake up, drink, fall asleep, wake up, drink, and I repeated that cycle until two days later. It honestly scared me, so I put it down right then and there. Now, I'm off everything but THC, which I'm only using before bed and I'm weening it off to where I can be fully sober, again. I'm back into my fandoms (including this one show with ponies in it), I'm back in the gym, and I will get back into writing.. I'm replacing cigarettes (which I always pick back up during a relapse) with my vape once I get moved back in. MLP (both FIM and finishing MYM), Helluva Boss, Invader Zim, and The Office have helped me get through. I'm finally sobering up and getting back to myself.

I wanted to keep this entry short since my last entry was about addiction and I've already run through the emotions and dark thoughts in that post. I'm returning to these forums and intend to engage the community more and continue posting to my blog. Stay Tuned!

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Starlight Serenade

I just want to say that I was moved by your message and wanted to say that I'm proud of you for doing your best to get through these challenging times.

I have several friends who went through similar situations with their addictions as you are in your journey towards sobriety, so I admire your courage in sharing your experiences so openly here. It's very inspiring to others going through similar situations and it's not an easy subject to discuss.

You have amazing resilience for maintaining good grades through law school despite your struggles. Making the decision to move back in with your folks and facing your addiction head-on is commendable and a testament to your strength. I know going cold turkey is not easy after a 24 hour bender, but you managed to do it. With every little step you take forward, you should be proud of your commitment towards a happier and healthier life. I hope you continue to pursue more positive interests and activities as they will help both your physical and mental health. 

I wish for you to continue to stay strong. I look forward to hearing more about your progress and seeing you post around on the forums again.

We believe in you. You've got this.

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1 hour ago, Starlight Serenade said:

I just want to say that I was moved by your message and wanted to say that I'm proud of you for doing your best to get through these challenging times.

I have several friends who went through similar situations with their addictions as you are in your journey towards sobriety, so I admire your courage in sharing your experiences so openly here. It's very inspiring to others going through similar situations and it's not an easy subject to discuss.

You have amazing resilience for maintaining good grades through law school despite your struggles. Making the decision to move back in with your folks and facing your addiction head-on is commendable and a testament to your strength. I know going cold turkey is not easy after a 24 hour bender, but you managed to do it. With every little step you take forward, you should be proud of your commitment towards a happier and healthier life. I hope you continue to pursue more positive interests and activities as they will help both your physical and mental health. 

I wish for you to continue to stay strong. I look forward to hearing more about your progress and seeing you post around on the forums again.

We believe in you. You've got this.

Thank you so much. I actually needed to hear this, tonight. Thank you. 🥺

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