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School is scary and I'm glad I'm graduating soon!


OverTheStars

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The 3rd quarter of my school year ends today, which I'm very happy about. I might be scared for the future, but after the weeks I've had before break, it's nothing compared to the chaos here.

I think I've mentioned it before, but my school district has always struggled with violence, half the students being chronically late/tardy, vaping, drugs, etc. and for the most part this hasn't affected me too much. It's easy to just sort of lock in and stick with people you trust. I've stayed out of trouble for the most part, and other than the various lockdowns we've had over the years, none of the chaos has really reached me. Until the other week. I don't know what happened to spark this sudden shift in behavior, but it all started on Monday when there were two fights in the same day. Some girl (not at our school) threatened to come to our school and fight another girl. The cops were called. At lunch an entirely different fight happened and both parties were broken up. Meanwhile the girl showed up at our school and attempted to FIGHT THE POLICE before getting arrested. It was passing period when it happened so of course everyone was being shoved around by people butting through to see the fight. After school that day, an unofficial school account started posting threats people were submitting to the school. At first it was just stupid stuff like threatening to jump people, but on Tuesday a threat was posted saying that they would wait until after school with a weapon and use it on the crowd of students walking to the buses. The cops show up again. Surprisingly there's no lockdown, but we have to walk an alternative route to the buses which is stupid because if a student really did have a weapon they would know that the route changed because the teachers literally told us that.

I get freaked out. My friends tell me that there's no way anyone is actually going to do it. I calm down.

For the next few days, several fights break out and a new account pops up that's posting all the videos. A few more threats are posted, which the school tries to keep secret for some reason, but it's on a public account and it's all anyone's talking about. I'm incredibly stressed for the rest of the week. I'm kind of stressed for the rest of the week about it, mostly because in schools around me and even a few times in my school there have been instances where they've found weapons on students. It's such a weird feeling to repeatedly return to the same place every day with a feeling of distrust towards any student you don't know.

Spring break comes, I relax for the first time in a while. 

But now I'm back in school. I'm not really scared anymore like I was the other week, but I'm still not happy here. I don't like high school at all and even though I'm nervous about a few aspects of college, I think I'd rather be there. It's the final stretch though, and I'm close. I've been relying a lot on fictional media to cheer me up, escapism isn't the perfect solution, but it is a nice comfort to have.

Sorry if there are any errors or weirdly worded things in here, I'm a bit frustrated while typing this.

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That sounds heavy... I'm really sorry you've had to go through all that. What you're dealing with isn't normal, it's okay to say it loud and to feel overwhelmed.

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I've been relying a lot on fictional media to cheer me up, escapism isn't the perfect solution, but it is a nice comfort to have.

When there's barely anything you can do, escapism sometimes becomes the only way, so don't blame yourself too much for that. The good part is, as you said, it's the final stretch; so as long as you hold on tight, you'll be doing all you can, given your social context.

I wish you best of luck. Stay safe! :hug_day:

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Some bizarre things happened during my school times too, but damn, not so bad as these described, hope something like that again or worse doesn't happen there, hope you're doing good Stars :hug_day:

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I'm so astonished:double-shock: and angry:Angry-zip: to read this, school may not be a happy place to attend but at least it should be a safe place to stay.

I feel sorry for your high school condition, as it leaves a bad times in your life.

beware of your safety and may you catch a beautiful college life.

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Oh wow, that is a lot to unpack. We're just glad that you are safe @OverTheStars

Please don't worry about having errors in your writing. English is my first language and I have a graduate degree, but I still make plenty of grammatical and spelling errors.

When I need to escape from some negative thoughts, I try to talk to family and friends, listen to music, and read/watch fictional media to help me cheer me up too. 

Please know that you are doing your best given the current circumstances.

It's completely valid to feel what you are feeling and I know that you are going to complete this last stretch of school the best you can.

I hope the rest of your school year goes smoothly and that you and your fellow classmates are safe and sound for your studies.

You got this! We believe in you :g5gang-smile:

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1 hour ago, Starlight Serenade said:

Oh wow, that is a lot to unpack. We're just glad that you are safe @OverTheStars

Please don't worry about having errors in your writing. English is my first language and I have a graduate degree, but I still make plenty of grammatical and spelling errors.

When I need to escape from some negative thoughts, I try to talk to family and friends, listen to music, and read/watch fictional media to help me cheer me up too. 

Please know that you are doing your best given the current circumstances.

It's completely valid to feel what you are feeling and I know that you are going to complete this last stretch of school the best you can.

I hope the rest of your school year goes smoothly and that you and your fellow classmates are safe and sound for your studies.

You got this! We believe in you :g5gang-smile:

Thank you, yours and everyone's kind words have meant a lot to me! I'm lucky enough to have a good support system, and I feel like being on this site helps take me mind off irl negativity, the people here are chill

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I have not much smart to say, I'm just happy for you ^•^

Welcome to freedom!

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Enjoy your freedom responsibly plz 9_9

 

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