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Just a Vent


Crypty Scribbles

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Hello, my little ponies!

Sorry for being cryptic. It's just a vent. I write it mostly because some words have to be said aloud to gain power.

Not so while ago I passed through a short personal crisis. A simple talk with a friend about certain people who's twisted nature is always causing malicious actions unintentionally caused a silent avalanche of thoughts about my own nature...

I'm not a saint and made of very crude material. And for a while every time when I wanted to post anything kind and cheerful immediately it was feeling false to me. I was feeling like an impostor, a pretender who's trying to trick everyone around. Feeling of not belonging, dark and lonely. And that feeling was familiar. I remembered that I passed through it already.

But I forgot.

I forgot that how hard I'm trying is way more important than what people could think about me. I'm not a mirror reflecting light, now I'm a beacon by myself. I have my own fire inside to guide me. And my wish to share this fire with people around is more strong than hypothetical or even real doubts of others.

Thank you for listening, ponies 6..6. Sometimes it really helps.

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Solaire of Astora, just because 9^9

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I struggle with this one a lot, myself. That's why I made my Ice Breaker blog because I don't want people to think I'm just a one dimensional happy person 24/7. It is a strange balance, isn't it? Wanting to only have supportive environment but also not wanting to silence the harsher and crazier parts of life while also not wanting to feed it too much so that it does not avalanche.

All it takes is one negative topic and BOOOOMM a flood of different people from different cultures all positing their perspective on it and it may lead to division and disagreements. You want to discourage that, to keep it so that we only focus on what we have in common but at the same time.. you want to be authentic and not just wash away the harsher aspects of life. Hmmmm....

I suppose what I am trying to say here is... I feel you. You're not alone in this one. I recently posted on someone's thread thinking they were confessing to being a scammer (LOL dammit, I need a vacation) because I wanted to be authentic with my reaction about it but it turns out they were not a native speaker and misspoke. :v

So, for me, it's less about being fake and just wanting to be as polite and assume the best about people. :ough-scoot: Hopefully to even inspire the best in ourselves...

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