To The Forum
Entry posted by Bright Honor in Discussion
69 views
Hello everyone. I hope you are all doing well.
This week has had me in thought. I have been thinking about the forum. Specifically...how i have treated you all. and if we are being honest it hasn't always been great. and that includes not being great to the staff sometimes. and i feel like i need to talk about it.
In the past, especially late 2010s, I haven't always been good to you all. I can go on and on about my IRL problems that cause me to be like how i was/am but that isn't the point here. The cold, hard truth is i have mistreated this forum. I have been rude, weird, aggressive, cynical, negative to this lovely forum. Arguing, causing drama needlessly, putting others in uncomfortable positions. posting aggressive, very depressing statuses, making others feel depressed by dumping my own problems unto them. I have even taken the kindness of others, staff included, for granted. and i had no right. Lately i have made some progress in terms of being better and not causing problems but the problems i have caused happened regardless. I am sorry the monster that i was, and still can be sometimes. i don't mean to be a monster. i have a lot of rage against this world. and unfortunately sometimes i took that out on you guys. and that is never acceptable. Sorry can't even remotely cover or change all that i have done.but i should say it anyway.
To the staff of this wonderful forum, I am truly sorry for any and all issues i have caused. and for getting defensive/taking things too personally when in reality you're just trying to help me be the best person i can be. the best friends will hold you accountable and hit you with the real, raw stuff when they need to. I should be more appreciative of that. and will try my best to be. You guys are amazing. The work you do here is wonderful.
I am sorry to all the non-staff members too. You guys deserve safety and positivity. I hope you all feel safe and happy here. I truly do.
Lately, I have been thinking of myself when i was younger. I miss that little, young, happy, and docile me and i am sorry that i haven't always shown that side of me. I miss him. I want to try and bring him back as best as i can. Sometimes, I don't know how to though...
Thank you all for putting up with me, even though you shouldn't have to and don't owe me anything. I appreciate everyone who has been supportive of me, even if i haven't always done a great job of showing it. I wish you all safety, love, kindness, happiness, and all you deserve.
-
4
1 Comment
Recommended Comments
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!
Join the herd!Sign in
Already have an account? Sign in here.
Sign In Now