This is the song that was playing when I had this...epiphany.

...I suggest playing it while you read.

I've been spending my nights on here quite frequently as of late, as many of you may know. Nothing makes me happier than being a Brony.

Of course, I have other tabs open in the background, playing my favorite music. The melodies of the songs I love so much flow through me as I partake in the wonderful website called MLPForums.com.

I've been watching playthroughs of Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies on YouTube, since I am unable to (legally) obtain the game for my personal use.

There are two characters that really stuck out to me, as I watched their story on screen about 15 minutes ago.

Anyone who knows about the game would assume it'd be Blackquill or Athena or whoever, but it wasn't.

The story that brought me to tears was Clay Terran's and Apollo Justice's story...

...losing a best friend really hurts.

...but, unlike Clay and Apollo, when you lose them through means within your control...

...breaks you in half.

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic preaches the lesson of friendship...

...but now I realize why I love that lesson so much.

It was last year; I was a Sophomore in high school. It was that in-between phase, and I still was between being as mature as a Junior, but I had some of the immature Freshman still in me.

Lust is a powerful thing to an immature mind, unfortunately...

I can't say I actually liked this girl (who'll remain nameless), I just thought she was hot.

That's all. No more, no less.

I can't lie. It was nothing but lust.

Of course, I tried talking her into being my girlfriend; it was natural of me to do so at that point, being horribly overconfident in myself, borderlining on flat-arrogance (I used to be a bit of a prick before I became a Brony, but we'll save that for next time.)

I started to go up and talk to her at lunch, staying for just a few minutes each day, gradually increasing the time I spent sitting by her each day.

If you'd have seen it, it'd been horribly obvious she wasn't interested in me. But I kept going up there each day, until I had left my own two best friends behind.

They'd been my best friends for years on end; it was the three of us, always. We'd done everything together.

We were all three so close, that even our families had become like families.

We'd hang out everyday after school, before school, weekends...you name it.

It was always the three of us.

...until I left them behind for my own personal desires...

...I'd phased them out of my life; I'd go days without speaking a word to those two.

Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months...

...until we were just faces in the hallway to each other.

One of my friends was diagnosed with a form of cancer in his knee...

...he was dying...

...but I didn't go back. I didn't talk to the two guys I had used to love like my own brothers. I didn't acknowledge them.

I was just...

I was wrong.

It didn't work out with the girl, either.

So once I found that out, I tried going back to them to be friends again...

...why I thought that'd work, I have no clue.

Of course they weren't very welcoming. They welcomed me back, but it was obvious they were a bit pissed at me. Who could blame them? I had neglected them.

So, I got irritated with the general coldness they were showing me...

The one who wasn't terminally ill and I got into a fist fight...

...nobody won that.

...So...here's a show preaching the power of friendship, how important friends are to one's life...

...and I realize through Clay and Apollo my ultimate placebo:

My Little Pony is what holds together my own broken soul, by letting me see what I used to have through the ponies in the show...

...What I threw away.

I'm on speaking terms with the one I didn't get into a fight with, but I haven't spoken with the other one since the fight...

...You never know what you got until it's gone, I guess.