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Magpie

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  1. Pan/bi. The distinction never mattered much to me, I always used the term bi because it's what I heard, but idk if pan would be more accurate.
  2. The occasional flies and spiders, but that''s all. We have wasps outside, but that's on the deck up to my apartment, so not in the house.
  3. I like wearing them, I find them cute. Besides your typical white/black ones I have 2 pairs of knee highs (I think they were supposed to be thigh highs but I'm 6'7...) one purple and one grey, both with black stripes. I also have some colorful ones, a rainbow-y pair, one with a bunch of pink and purple stripes, and a set of argyle ones of various colors.
  4. Me, but not because I want to. I just have a hard time sleeping. I then wake up for work at 8:30 with like 4 hours of sleep, unfortunately.
  5. "Mom" and I guess "Dad" but that one's usually in the third person, I haven't spoken to him in years and I don't think either of us wants to.
  6. All of them, but if I had to pick one I'm working on it's diabetes. My mom's side has a family history of it, and I used to have too much sugar in my diet which wasn't good. I've since cut back majorly now that I'm on keto, and lost a good bit of weight, too, so I'm hoping that won't be an issue.
  7. I suppose I wouldn't mind, it's a dark environment where you're supposed to be quiet, it's not like being alone is that weird. I don't think I ever have, though. I don't see movies very often, haven't been to a theater in years.
  8. I share one with my bf, I guess all it says about us is we don't spend much time in there for things other than sleeping. It's just a bed, a drawer for clothes, and a projector we occasionally use to watch stuff. I'm not usually in there otherwise.
  9. Yes, I hadn't even considered not doing so to be an option. I suppose you don't have to, I just wouldn't feel right and my hair would feel uncomfortably dirty for my tastes.
  10. I took the galaxy brain route of being the girlfriend instead. Though I have had girlfriends in the past, I'm currently dating a guy, so I guess technically I have no GF.
  11. A piece of dark chocolate. But for like, food food, I made some steak and spinach for dinner.
  12. 6'7, or a little over 2 meters. I honestly wish I was shorter, makes it hard to find clothes, fit in cars, etc. Causes me back/neck pain having to bend for everything.
  13. Here's a picture because I've changed up my look a bit since I last posted here. And then a masked one because I got a cute mask and wanna show it.
  14. Update - I came out to my BF. He took it better than I expected and was very supportive. I'm now crying a lot. But this is good. Thanks everyone, I do think having the conversation here helped me have it IRL.
  15. I feel accomplished. And tired. And I cried a lot. But mostly accomplished.

  16. Barely existent here in Tennessee. From Michigan where it snowed way more, I miss it in theory but in practice snow got annoying to deal with.
  17. 1 because I live in an apartment. It's a 2 story building though, we have people living beneath us, unfortunately (They're loud and fight a lot and their dog is aggressive towards ours).
  18. I never truly disliked you either, though there was a period after where I was hurtful to you in some ways that weren't justified, and I'm sorry for that. Comparatively I've just had the two identities, both times shifting more to the feminine end. Looking back on it, I honestly feel like the non-binary label for me was in part to let me be more feminine without having to worry as much about the masculine traits still there. It let me see how I felt not being a man without having to commit to being a woman, I guess. I'm in the same camp on that last point. My face is unmistakably masculine, I grow a full beard quickly, have a deep voice, etc. I used to get mistaken (back when I thought it was a mistake, anyways) for a woman in my late teens though, so maybe there's hope yet for me. I know my bf has no problem with trans-ness itself, and I know he finds trans men just as attractive. But I worry I'd lose him if he really is strictly attracted to men. I do regret never getting to meet you, though in the mental state I was in at that time it may not have gone well if we did. I don't mean that in some sort of edgy way if it sounds like that, I mean more I was heavily obsessive with relationships and what I at the time thought would make me happy. It was the first serious relationship I'd been in and I had no idea how to act. Oh geez, the Indiana story. This is a prime example of what I mean, no thinking things through, just on a whim deciding to drive across the country into a blizzard in a beat up old car. I had no idea what I'd even do if I got there, either. Just decided that my current obsession was there and I'm not, so that's where I should be. I honestly don't know if Texas would be better or worse than Tennesee. Neither seems good, though... I miss Michigan. I at least live in a college town, so most people I associate with are college educated 20-somethings, which at least in my experience haven't been too homo/transphobic. I only get publicly insulted once in a while, and haven't experienced any true threat or danger or anything from it yet. I was taking an interest in it because it helps me feel less manly, but also because I just find it pretty and fun. I got this big set of all sorts of colored eyeshadows, for instance, it's just fun to be able to play with my look while I re-invent myself. Cat ear hoodie does sound very cute, though. I wouldn't call myself "set", especially since my BF lost his job last year (they fired him on Christmas Eve of all days...) but I do well enough as a software QA that we don't struggle. Not having a phone sounds rough, though. It may seem like a strange offer coming from someone you haven't spoken to in a while, and I totally get if you can't accept or if it just feels weird, but do you need help on that front? Either one actually, phone or cute stuff. I'd hate for that to be a barrier to expressing yourself. I totally get the losing jewelry thing, considering I lost this cute purple chain mail bracelet my BF had made for me. I have no idea how I lost it, I wore it to sleep and next morning it was gone. I've searched all over for it, it just poofed out of existence or something. I still feel bad about it. I don't mind my height so much, it's not like women can't be tall. (6'7 is extreme, but I'm only a couple inches taller than my mom, for instance) Weight, I'm working on. Down 30lbs in the past 2 months. General frame is rough on me though, I have broad shoulders and a masculine face, a deep voice and huge feet. Things I can't really change though, so I suppose dwelling on them doesn't help. Of course I'd use your name, It'd be really hypocritical of me to ask people to change how they refer to me and not do the same for others. Do you prefer just Ash, or Ash Dallas when referred to? I hadn't looked into the actual meaning of names much, but most should be better than my current one which means something about seizing someone by the heel in Hebrew. The reason I had gravitated towards Maggie (or I guess now just Magpie, potentially) is because they're very smart birds full of personality, yet have a bad reputation as being evil or ominous like their other corvid cousins, which makes it feel a little rebellious.
  19. Corvids in general, but specifically the Magpie. Smart, cute, and overlooked by most people. One of the smartest in the world actually, on the same tier as elephants, dolphins, and chimps, but people tend to dismiss them comparatively. I also have a soft spot for goats though.
  20. 5 and a half. Better than the 4 I've gotten the past few nights. I've just had a lot on my mind that all comes to keep me up when I'm trying to sleep.
  21. You know, I hadn't considered Magpie as a name itself, but it is cute... I'm the one picking my name, it's not like I have to pick a traditional one. I'll certainly still have to think on it, but I like that idea. I like corvids in general, but Raven and Crow sound too edgy and dark for my tastes. Thank you, for the kindness and the potentially good name idea.
  22. Yeah, my bf and I both got ours a couple months ago. Easy process, side effects weren't too bad. Still going to wear a mask in public though, helps against getting sick in general. (And because I got a cute one I like wearing.)
  23. I know you, It'd be pretty hard to forget. Sounds like you've had a bit of a journey yourself then, Ash. And thank you, for the kind words and support. I hadn't realized I wasn't a cis guy when you knew me, either. I was in my "surely of I just act and look more manly I'll feel more comfortable as a man" phase, and I was living with my dad so it's not like I had any other options for gender presentation that wouldn't get my kicked out. (He kicked me out anyways, but at least by then I had a decent job). I started identifying as an enby around 20, a bit after I left the forums for the most part. Even then there were little hints, though. I probably should have questioned why I liked wearing thigh highs (more like knee-highs on me) and women's underwear, even back then. But I tried not to think too much about it, I guess. I don't think my boyfriend would react negatively in like, an anti-trans sense, he's always been pro trans-rights, but he also isn't attracted to women. Well, I think? He said "only if they're very dominating" which is not me. He seems to react positively to the toe-dipping into the gender pool I've done so far though, but I can't tell if that's just being nice or not, he's rarely openly judging of anything I do. Trans/enby phobic area describes where I am now too, we moved to Tennesee when we didn't have anywhere to stay in Michigan anymore. I've only been called a slur in public once since wearing a skirt in public, though, so maybe not so bad? I do think a mini-skirt would feel very nice and gender affirming, but though I've lost some weight since you knew me, not enough to feel comfortable exposing that much of myself, yet. Other gender-affirming clothes I'd like to get would be heels (though being size 18 men's shoe makes that hard, and being 6'7 I don't exactly need them. They are cute though) and maybe a blouse to go with my (full length) skirt. I have the advantages of being fairly okay on money and as the sole income between me and him I'm able to do what I'd like on that front. He seemed confused as to why I bought eyeliner/shadow and a skirt, but considering it came in the same package as a pentagram necklace and a big knife I suppose it was just a strange order overall. I'm not decided on Maggie because it has the downside of making me think of the baby from the Simpsons. I also like the names Emma, Talia, and Juniper. Juniper starts with the same letter as my current name too, which might make it easier for me to adapt to? I don't have a whole lot to go off, just picking ones I like.
  24. I don't need more cleaning chores, so nah. Also even if it is structurally sound I'd always be paranoid of the glass breaking, just because glass seems so fragile even if it's not. Sit down to hard and now there's water everywhere and glass shards in your butt...
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