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  1. ToxicNinja78
    Equestria Girls.
     
    There's enough talk about it now, I feel I need to share my thoughts.
     
    My opinion?
    Simple. It looks stupid.
     
    That's it. No "It'll destroy the show!" or "I'm leaving the fandom!" or "Let's kill the writers!". None of that.
    Just a simple thought. It looks stupid.
     
    I don't wanna watch it. I'm not going to [go out of my way to] watch it. [if someone offers to take me and pay for a ticket, I'll go.] Other people are, and that's okay.
    But beyond that, I really couldn't give less of a shit.
     
    To the people who are saying it'll destroy the show?
    No it won't. It may influence it. We may see Sunset Shimmer as a pony at some point. (At least, that's who I think the red-and-yellow-haired girl is, wouldn't surprise me.) There may be other things. But it won't ruin the show.
     
    To those leaving the fandom? Cool. Don't let the door hit ya on the way out. It's a nice door, I don't want your asses on it.
     
    To those threatening the creators? You're sick fucks. There is no need for that. At all. It's a god damn cartoon. Yeah, it's a great one, and it's spawned a great fandom and a fuckton of awesome artwork, but ultimately, it's a fuckin' cartoon. Go to a fucking therapist, you have issues.
     
    Anyway, that's what I think.
     
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  2. ToxicNinja78

    Just...wow.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    So, for the last couple of days, I've been talking to a girl on here. She's really cool. We get along great.
    Anyway, we were talking today, and she tells me to add her on Facebook.
    I'm not giving out her full name, but her first name is Skye.
     
    Now, let me go back a little.
    While I was still in high school, I had a friend. I'm sure you can guess the name.
    Anyway, she was fucking awesome, I loved hanging out with her.
    But senior year, we ended up...I don't really know how to say this, I don't wanna talk about what happened.
    But she hated me.
     
    Anyway...
    I was told shortly after I signed up for this site that she had an account.
    Now, there's dozens of people with "Skye" in their username on this site.
    So I thought, "What are the odds I'm gonna run into her? She's creative and shit, she probably goes in the roleplay forums, I'll just stay out of that and I should be fine."
    Anyway, I'm looking at the recent topics on the home page, and I find a topic about Derpy.
    So I say something, and I end up talking to the girl who started the topic, SkyeRibbonPwny.
    I ended up adding her as a friend, and...I dunno, sometime later, we start talking, and...I explained this bit already.
    So she tells me her name.
    And it hits me.
    "Holy shit. I know you."
    I sent her a pic of myself, wondering if she'd recognize me.
    She did.
    We're cool now.
    It's fucking great.
    Especially after the panic attacks last night/early this morning.
    I fuckin' missed her, I really did.
    So this is a good fucking day.
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    Panic attacks.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    This is new for me. I've NEVER had a panic attack before.
    And now I've had two in the last few hours.
    I don't know what it is.
    I'm just coming down from the last one.
    Well...okay, I've had two and a half I guess. I was calming down after the second one, and a bunch of people came over, but they didn't knock the way they usually do, so it scared the shit out of me.
    I don't know what caused it. I just know it NEVER happened before.
    I...I don't know what the fuck is going on with me.
    I don't like it.
    I really don't fucking like it.
  4. ToxicNinja78
    So, I'm technically not supposed to be living in the apartment I live in.
    Limit of 2 people in a 1-bedroom place.
    There's currently 4.
    And 3 are stoners.
    Apartment ownerd are doing inspections of the apartments inside and out.
    So not only do I need to find shit to do from 9 to 5 every day next week, I could still end up getting fucked over.
    Because, again, stoners.
    If they find the weed, they might throw us out. Or worse...
    I mean, I'll pass a drug test easily, but I dunno how it'll go for them.
    And one of my roommates is a dumbass, even when he's sober. I'm terrified he's gonna ruin everything.
    He once answered the door with a joint in his hand and a bong on the table near the door.
    No idea what the fuck we're gonna do about him.
    Ugh...this fucking sucks.
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    Screw it.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    I'm not gonna force myself to draw. I can't do it. I either can't get started or I finish and it looks like shit. So I give up. If I have something I wanna draw, I'm gonna go for it. But if someone asks me for something, I'm gonna have to tell them no.
    Maybe, for some of my friends, people I know, I'll still draw stuff if they ask me to. I know them, they know me, it'll be easier. But for random people I meet online? I can't do it anymore.
    If I told you I'd draw something for you...I'm sorry. I really am.
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    OH MY GOD.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    Coheed And Cambria.
    They're gonna be part of this year's Rockstar Uproar Festival.
    This is already gonna be better than the last two years COMBINED.
    And the best part?
    I might get to meet the band this time.
    Every year, most of the bands will sign CDs and stuff. I've only seen one that didn't. Avenged Sevenfold, during Uproar 2011.
    Which means, hopefully, I'll get to meet them!
    Need to make sure I have plenty of money though.
    Food is expensive as hell.
    Plus, I'll probably end up buying a new lighter.(Zippo is one of Uproar's sponsors.)
    And I need two signed CDs. I know Kassidy would love a signed copy of Descension.
    Would have gotten one at the Coheed show back in March, but I had no way to hold it.
    And if I can find all the Coheed merch, they might have hardcover collections of the Second Stage Turbine Blade and In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth: 3 comics.
    ...and I'll have to buy a bag to carry them in.
    Definitely getting a couple of shirts too.
    God, I can't wait!
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    Lol.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    So I got paid this morning.
    On my way out of work, I decided to stop at McDonald's.
    Got myself a McGriddle. Love those things.
    So I walk out. Justin happened to be there for some reason, so I ended up getting a ride home.
    I'm sitting there, in the car, eating, and I remember something.
    Part of a conversation I had with a friend on here yesterday.
     
    "HOLY CRAP ARE YOU LIKE A SMURF?
    Geeeez go to McDonald's or something..."
    -SkyeRibbonPwny, after finding out how much I weigh.
     
    I lol'd.
    Seriously, this didn't even cross my mind. I had completely forgotten she'd said that.
    Kinda funny.
     
    Anyway...that was it really. I'm not in the mood to ramble on about random shit. So bye.
  8. ToxicNinja78
    I know what you're thinking. "2 blog entries in one day? Insane!"
    ...well, for me, anyway.
    But, I feel like talking, so...here goes.
    Went through some familiar places with Justin while he picked up papers.
    Some of them brought up some memories. Nothing in particular, just those "I haven't been here since..." moments.
    The Wal-Marts we stopped at were so much nicer than the La Marque one. (The one I work at, if you're wondering.)
    I really should've brought my 3DS. Could've finished Ocarina Of Time.
    Which reminds me, I wonder if that Majora's Mask remake will ever happen...
    What else can I ramble on about...
    I'm fucking happy I moved out of Aaron's place. Now that I really think about it, that guy is an arrogant prick. Don't know how I got along with that asshole. Seriously. I swear, everything he says contradicts something he said 5 minutes before. And he will go through every fucking little detail and technicality to make sure people know he's right in an argument. There is no winning with that fucker. And his apartment...I've seen photos of crack houses that were cleaner. I don't know why JJ hasn't thrown his ass out.
    That reminds me, still need to pick up my copies of Fallout 3 and Oblivion.
    I really wanna get drunk. I'm so much happier when I'm drunk. I just don't give a fuck. I'm happy. I'm not thinking about any bullshit, I'm just...happy.
    Although, right now, I'd be happy with any kind of drink. Alcoholic or otherwise.
    Why does my phone keep wanting to play Nickelback? I'm not in the mood. I mean, I like them, just not right now. And normally my phone's pretty good about that shit. It's like it knows me...
    Still wanna try Bioshock Infinite. Looks fucking awesome.
    'Bout to pass up a gaming shop I use to go to for Warhammer stuff. I still don't want to learn Magic. I still can't stand the sight of that shit. Apparently though, people at this shop play Dungeons And Dragons more than Magic now. I think I'm gonna start going again.
    ...damn, I'm hungry. Ate more than I did yesterday.
    Not much more though. Cereal when I woke up, and a sandwich...I dunno when. Hours ago.
    That's another good thing about living in a clean place. I'm not feeling sick all the time, so my appetite is returning. Kind of. Still fucked up by the constantly changing sleep schedule, but it's better than it was.
    I guess that's it for now. I can't think of anything else, so see y'all later.
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    What if...?

    By ToxicNinja78,

    Justin wanted me to come with him while he picked up papers. He works for the Houston Chronicle.
    Anyway, he asked me to come along so he wouldn't die of boredom between stores.
    We get up into Clear Lake. Or Creek. Or League City, whatever the fuck this area is.
    I used to live here, and it got me thinking.
    What if I had stayed?
    Could've avoided a lot of bullshit.
    That awful 4 months with Shelby.
    The trainwreck I call my sophomore year.
    ...whatever happened junior year.
    Living with my alcoholic mother and dumbass stepfather.
    What if I hadn't moved back to Texas City?
    Would have met different people. Been in different relationships.
    Dad would've been cool with me being bisexual. He's pretty relaxed about a lot of things.
    A lot of things would have been different.
    But you know what?
    I'm happy it went this way.
    I've met some pretty awesome people.
    Justin.
    Melissa.
    Derek.
    Austin.
    John.
    Kassidy.
    Skye.
    Chris.
    Kaitlyn.
    Alyssa.
    A dozen other people I'm forgetting because there's so much shit running through my mind.
    I've met some amazing people, and even though I've been through hell, I wouldn't have it any other way.
    But still...
    I'm a naturally curious person. I can't help but wonder what would've been different...
  10. ToxicNinja78

    I dunno.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    I don't know what to say. I wanna say something, but....I dunno. I guess I'll just ramble on for a while.
    So...it's 4/20. Roommates have been talking about getting me high. Nothing. Jojo's not even here, and Justin's fucking with the TV. Figured this would be the day. It's 4/20, the pothead's holiest day (for reasons unknown to me), and a weekend, when I don't have to work, so I figured they be bugging me all day about it. Nothing.
    What else...
    Lighter has fluid again, so I've been playing with it.
    Played through New Vegas some more. Started the Old World Blues DLC. It's...interesting. I am happy that radiation seems to be a problem again, even if it's not as big as it was in Fallout 3. But I'm a bit disappointed the spore carriers are here too. Bad enough they're in Zion. I don't like those things.
    This reminds me, my copies of Fallout 3 and Oblivion are still at my last place. Not like I need them. Both games are on my computer. I'd give them to someone, but I only know one person with a PS3, and I think she moved to...Houston? I dunno. Something like that. Her sister was pretty happy when she left though.
    ...
    Shit, I wonder what my brother thought when I moved out. I was probably far worse to Thomas than she was to Kassidy...
    Uh...shit...still not done talking...what else can I say...
    Downloading Borderlands 2 and Bioshock Infinite. I know Borderlands is bitchin', but I really wanna play Bioshock. For some reason, I could never get into the first two. Dunno why. But this one looks good.
    That reminds me, I still wanna play Assassin's Creed 3.
    ...
    I don't think I've eaten all day.
    ...no, I take that back. Haven't eaten much. Just a bowl of cereal.
    I really need to eat more. My weight drifts between 95 and 105 lbs. (Not that bad, considering I'm 5'1", but 95 is still technically underweight for my size. I think.)
    God damn, "Carry On" by Fun. is a great song.
    So is "Gangnam Style". Love that song. PSY is a badass.
    You know what isn't badass though? Fall Out Boy's new album. That was a pile of shit.
    ...hm...maybe I could start doing album reviews and shit on here. Maybe. I dunno yet.
    I have a massive headache right now...
    Uh...
    Gonna listen to Coheed And Cambria now. I fucking love these guys.
    Saw them live. They were in Houston last month. Fucking epic. Those guys know how to put on a fucking show. I really hope they do a Neverender tour for In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth 3. I wanna see them again. Soon.
    Heh. I've gotten several people to listen to Coheed. Heard Kassidy singing "Sentry The Defiant" a few days ago. And apparently Justin had wanted to go to a Coheed show. (Part of the reason I want them to do a IKSOSE3 Neverender Tour.)
    ...um...
    That's all I got really...Guess I'll talk later when I have more shit to say. Bye.
  11. ToxicNinja78

    1:10 AM.

    By ToxicNinja78,

    Started this entry at 1:10. Didn't have a better title.
    Playing Fallout: New Vegas. I finally got all the DLC, so at this point, I'm crawling up to level 20 so I can start Dead Money.
    But I've been through all this other shit so many times before. I killed the convicts attacking Goodsprings, I've brought law back to Primm, I've witnessed the aftermath of destruction of Nipton, I've seen Boone snipe that bitch who runs the Novac hotel, I've reactivated Helios One, all of it, so many times. It doesn't require much thought.
    So my mind is free to wander. And it's chosen some rather depressing things to think about. It sucks. I really wish I could go to therapy or start taking some pills and chill the fuck out. But I can't afford that shit. Especially now that I have to pay rent and shit. So I get to deal with it all. Constantly.
    I honestly don't know how I keep going. I don't have a lot of friends. I never really did. And I keep losing the ones I have. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm glad they're gone. There's only one I'd want to be friends with again. The others...their own damn fault. Idiots.
    But still. It's tough for me to make friends. I'm an awkward, antisocial little freak. So while I don't care that I lost any particular person, I do care that I lost a friend.
    But that drifted off of my point. They'd all be fine without me. I don't know why I keep going on sometimes. I really don't. My job fucking sucks. I'm sick of cleaning a fucking Walmart. But unfortunately, there's no way they're moving me, because I'm one of the best employees they've got. (Which is all kinds of sad, but given the area, totally understandable.)
    I don't know. A lot of things. Like where I was going with this. Anyway. I guess I'm gonna get back to Fallout. Really wanna play Honest Hearts. Which reminds me, I need to download the Burned Man mod.
    If you feel like talking, feel free to message me. Buh bye.
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