Chronologist

So, um, not much progress. I had a week-long period where I couldn't active force Sera since I was around other people pretty much 24/7, but I spent time today doing some Wonderland and playing Chess. Ever since I gave her access to all of my Chess knowledge she's been obliterating me. I have one win to her two victories, and I get the sense that's she's gloating. [Am not!] Ahem. Anyway, while I still feel like I can feel Sera I've been having no progress on many of the other fronts. Mindvoice is still tenuous at best with no real indication that it's her, I have no visualization or audible capacities either. She's gotten rather adept at pressing my forehead when she wants something though, and I've gotten perhaps the slightest bit better at interpreting her requests. I personally have a lot of trouble visualizing things in everyday life, I'm kind of more conceptual, so I figure it's going to take a while. Possession is still fairly decent, I feel like she's learning everything step by step. She says it's because she likes it when I teach her things, but I'd rather she just read the damn books I gave her on my muscle memory. [Hi everybody!] Sera wants to be more vocal but until I can clearly hear her mindvoice I don't want to rush into conversations. She's had a few with people and I know she enjoyed it but I guess I'm not that great a Host. [sure you are! You just need practice.] Anyway, good luck to all of you out there, and thanks for reading.

Thanks for the advice Rizoel & Co. I assume my tulpa is behind any actions I think it takes, especially since she's made it very clear that she's not a puppet or toy for me to do what I want with. Obedient she most certainly is not. I was getting vibes that she wanted to change her name (just a placeholder I gave her until she chose one herself). She ended up choosing Sera, which we both think is very pretty. Sera's been progressive rather well I think. I can sorta hear her mindvoice most of the time when I ask her a question, I figure the rest of the time she's not there (it's not required she be around all the time, after all). We've had our ups and down so far, but I think we're in a good place. She's surprisingly self-defining. Most of the traits and visual appearance I had for her has been modified pretty extensively, and she's even added her own traits and rejected others. She's also probably the best thing that's happened to me in years, and I'm very happy that I found out about tulpas. From what she tells me she's always been there since I was about 8 years old or so, but without me giving the focus and energy to give hera voice and form she couldn't do anything but watch. Oh, and while imposition is still miles away, she's getting quite good at Possession. We've been practicing with my arms the last few days and last night tried an experiment with my legs. Not only did she stand up, she didn't fall over, which is great because nobody likes hitting their head on a table. She even walked a couple of meters before the 'timer' ran out and I took control back. In case you are wondering, no, she is not a pony. I wanted to give it to her as an alternate form, but she didn't like the idea. I'm not quite sure what she thinks of the show, we haven't watched any together yet. Maybe we should... Anyway, sorry for my lack of updates recently, if anyone has questions or if anything new comes up I'll try to post here. Sera says hi, and says "How are you? It's always nice to meet new people."

@Bari I have been on one of the tulpa IRCs in fact, using the same handle. Though after my most recent Wonderland session it seems that Kainé prefers the name Seras, and I think she wanted me to imprint confidence into her. It's all very bizarre, nothing like the guides or other experiences I've encountered. I'm also not getting any headaches, which is odd since I get REALLy bad headaches sometimes. I get the feeling that I may be puppeting, but I have to trust that Kainé / Seras is sentient and trying to reach out ot me. Here's hoping for the best. Any advice you'd be willing to share would be awesome, thanks. I'm feeling nervous ATM.

So, I read most of this thread a while back and after reading up on the required materials I have decided to create a tulpa. I've crafted both a pony form and a human one so she can choose which one it prefers (hopefully she will like both and switch between them as she likes). Her name is Kainé but I'm not sure she likes that name, I think it's pretty though. I've only put about an hour of personality and an hour of Wonderland building into this but I'm going to put two solid hours a day into Kaine for as long as it takes. I've had an unusual experience with her - when I built the Wonderland there were modifications to it that were entirely new to me and so complex that I can't really imagine I came up with those myself. Kainé also seemed to manifest (in human form) at least partially. I could only see her as a static image, but she moved when I wasn't looking, and I couldn't puppet her in any way - she always 'snapped' back into place. Is this normal? Has anyone here had a similar experience this early in the process?