Okay, I'm considering making a tulpa. This is my first time and I am both a little nervous and unsure. I have a guide on how to make one, but I am unsure of whether or not to follow through.
I wanted to do a Fluttershy-esque tulpa, I had it all planned out and everything but then the following hit me:
- What is this possession thing I've heard people talk about? It sounds incredibly creepy... Are you still in control of yourself? I wouldn't really want my sentient sub conscious taking over...
- How real does it feel to have a tulpa? Is it as though you're own developed character is standing before you?
- I would be worried that if in the future, I wanted to get rid of this tulpa, I would end up feeling guilty about getting rid of it, knowing that it was a sentient being (a thought-being, but still)(this is just to be sure, I'm not implying I'm gonna keep it for one day then try to find ways to get rid of it.)
- Is it always there constantly or can you ask your tulpa for some space (again, this is just to be sure, not necessarily something I would do)
- How is it when it comes to sleeping? Do you still get a good night's sleep or are you disturbed during the night?
I really need to know all this stuff because I would love to have a tulpa, but I would hate to regret having a tulpa.
Also, is there the possibility of it going completely wrong and your tulpa looking like it came from a freakin' horror film?