And, this is my blog, so I’m gonna talk about myself for a bit.
I know its not everyone’s cup of tea hearing me vent like this, but I’m a guy with problems, same as a lot of bronies. I can’t speak for everyone but My Little Pony is a force for good in my life and something very dear to me. I find it very difficult to be happy, I’ve been depressed for such a long time I don’t know how to relax.
As I said before, I don’t make friends easily and the hardest part of getting to know all you wonderful people is the fact we will probably never meet. I know its not the only thing that matters, but I guess I’m lonely.
What gets me out of bed in the mornings is knowing that my crappy art brings people happiness, and in recent years I’ve made a conscious decision to be a better person, and to trust others, and to see if I can’t make someone elses life just a little better and show them that there are still nice guys in the world, even if I get nothing in return.
Sometimes this means holding a door open for someone, sometimes it means giving something to charity so that others can have clean drinking water or even sometimes, drawing a person’s favorite pony just to put a smile on their face.
So, I don’t know, maybe one day I’ll be happier, and can make art that I’m satisfied with but for now I’ll always see each piece as imperfect and tell myself that if the audience likes it my opinion doesn’t matter.
Well I guess that if anybody is turned off of me because I’m a guy with insecurities then they aren’t the kind of people I need around. I don’t want to be dismissive, I’m not saying if you aren’t with me then you’re against me, but I hope that a little of my caring might rub off on you and that you’ll repay that kindness some time when I need it most. I’ll continue to be as nice and kind as I can, because as Pinkie Pie once said:
"The best thing about friendship is being able to make your friends smile."
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