You don't get out a lot do you? It sounds like most of your questions are related to your position in life. Your still in High School and I know how you feel. My advice is to just do what makes you feel good. You obviously like the show and if you want to flaunt it, go ahead because high school is just temporary. I know it seems like your whole world right now because school is all you have known so far and I can understand that because I felt the same way back then. I know this sounds cliche but, just be yourself and don't care what everyone else thinks because the sad truth is, once you get out of high school, you won't talk or see 90% of those people and the other 10% are the ones worth keeping. I had to figure that out just as you will so don't worry about it, keep your head up, and follow your heart. Things always have a funny way of working out.