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  1. Aerodynas
    To the father of the one who cherishes him everyday,
     
    Thank you sir in all that I can give. Never before in my life have a found a woman more grown and mature than your daughter in her own beauty and self worth. I am envious of her, the way she talks about how wonderful you were before your passing. I myself never really had that but, in life, I would have given my best to meet you face to face and shake your hand. There is no respect that I can endow that would best fit the man who brought an amazing woman like her into this world and taught her the importance of life and smiles. You would be proud of her, even though you undoubtedly are already. She dreams unlike any other, inspired by your legacy of love and aspiration. Everyday, she holds the greatest sovereignty about your name and misses you very dearly with all her heart and mind. Pushed by your sacrifice, I know your daughter will reach the heights she has worked so hard to climb. There is not a day that goes by that I feel I am worthy of her and to bear the knowledge of never knowing the man that molded her hands so thoroughly in life. All that I can give now is my gratitude. You will never be forgotten, for even though I can’t see you and possibly never will in person, you’re eyes shine through those of your daughter. I pray they look upon me favorably as I look back in all I can give. Till the end of my life on this earth, your daughter’s smile will forever be a true treasure...as it once was yours.
     
    Until the day we may finally meet another,
    Gregory
  2. Aerodynas
    Rise and Fall with the Sun Rolling Over the Hills


     

    Rise and fall with the sun rolling over the hills,



    My unfailing love for you holds fast.



    Songs greater than the mighty roaring gaels,



    Aspiring adventure in your grasp is cast.



    Trials unending through smiting storm and shadows,



    My fight shall continue till the very last.


     

    Once I thought the sun to never bring me peace,



    The crimson flowed blindly to its call.



    I ventured far south, west and to the east in search,



    Endless seasons met my every fall.



    What past chases to fight and world pulling strong,



    My pillar of promise anchors proudly tall.


     

    Written like the stories of old in rhythmic time,



    Sweet is your voice of that heralding hum.



    Heart lacking defeat and breathe of rushing waters,



    A fire beating as would the fiercest drum.



    To you my freedom bids me give chase,



    My northern star is you to which I come.


     

    The horizon carefully drawn in perfect permanence ,



    To it, hastily my heart and being run.



    Rays of warmth comforting that invincible moment.



    At last, my dreams nearly yet won.



    I see it, gleaming golden above those emerald hills,



    Your love, forever, my new rising sun.


  3. Aerodynas
    There is pain in my existence to acknowledge that the true words I wish to say unto you cannot yet be audible to you for reasons beyond my control. I do understand them and shall respect them to the utmost for eager visions of the golden future that will await me by your side. I guess my words expressed by these keys will have to do for now...
    My dearest desire of life, so long have I searched for the paradise I have found in even the simple sound of your voice: something blocked off by many but relished by my listening ears. In the beginning, you sounded too good to be true. It was as though I was living in the stories of fiction that we have both once made at some occasion or the next...A miracle of a dream, you were so real...so alive...with every breath that passed from your lips. I swore once that I could see into your being: your scars, your pain, your love, your hate...and in this sight, I believed in the precious person you truly were and are to this very moment I write these words for you. As I once sang my heart to you, if you would remember, ‘I know you too well to say you’re perfect but you’ll see, oh my sweet love...You’re perfect for me.’ Ever since you pulled me close, even if it wasn't purposely executed, and reached your hand out to me…I knew I was changed, reaching back and holding on to the sacred embrace your hands gave. Even after all I was...even after who I am and who I may be in the future...you held me. Your lips that flowed like honey, comforted me...and have now found the key to what I have locked away from existence: you would wait for me...Never before has such blessed words been uttered to me, even after the many occasions I had given them.
    On this night that I stand in excitement of a future to forever know and cherish your unfathomable love, I carry the promise of my love for you. I cross my heart that I will give all I am to make your dreams come to be...Now, I only wait for you. I wait to finally behold your presence, and to embrace it with arms scarred just as much as yours. I am strong in my smile because of you. These manly tears that fall are a great treasure, for you alone. You are never too far from my love...for it will go through the very fires of the inferno and back just to feel your gaze upon me and my heart in your hands. I promise I will always fight for you...if you will but let me. My love will take you in and it will be our home, knowing that with you is where it belongs...where I belong. I have made my horizon. Now I just need you in the picture. One day, I will sing again...but in your heavenly light.
    These stars that I watch in the endless sky tonight, really do shine for you alone.
    And as I have learned from that song you wished me to learn, I know I can’t win without you by my side: the one of which my heart shall forever sing.
  4. Aerodynas
    I am sorry. I am sorry to everyone of whom I have affected or spoken to in my time here. I didn't mean to leave you short handed in your desire for online communication and friendship. For the most part, I have been extensively fake in an attempt to reconcile my failures and pains in the life away from the computer screen. Not only have I been unsympathetic to many, I have fooled others into growing attached to me. It was like a drug, lighting and inhaling until it was burnt out. Sadly, the satisfaction was only temporary. Assuming the date is correct, I have been a member of this site a little over half a year and throughout that time period I have been hiding from a reality I have to face. It's nice to dream...but sometimes you have to let go. You have to understand that life is what it is and it isn't getting any better. It will always remain the way it was since the beginning and you can be assured that one day you will die. What you do in that time, whether you waste it on a website, party with your friends all the time, work till your dying breath, is your decision.
     
    Look at me pretending to be wise. In reality, I'm not wise at all. I'm a very insecure person who has had a deep and dark past. Sensibly, who hasn't had a dark past? Who hasn't had it rough in their life? Everyone has it rough in some form right? Everyone is special in their own way and everyone has a purpose....
     
    Unfortunately, if everyone has these things, who truly has these things? I'm not special. I don't have a purpose. Shadow and dust is what I am. I will work then I will die. Doubtfully, I will love and have a family. If I do, likely, it will be only to satiate that desire rather than out of love. I'm nothing more than a pawn: a marionette on a string. Fighting the inevitable only makes it worse. Believing in the impossible only makes it worse. Just bend over and take it...My face is blank. You can hide and imagine the world to be colorful and beautiful, but you only blind yourself to the shades of grey...I accept them now. I am no one. I am a beaten, ugly, and torn image...colorless and pale.
     
    It's time to take my place in those lines of shadows...
    et sic alii mortem
  5. Aerodynas

    Hunting Mushrooms

    By Aerodynas,

    So rather than what the title says...me and my uncle didn't find any mushrooms even though we may look like we were on them I had fun but figured I'd share some of the pictures XD Ignore his and my insanity. We were bored.
     
    There are a ton of spoilers because of the size of the images...I'll see if I can fix this
     
    The ozark mountain scenery:
     
     
     
    Somewhat decent pictures
     
     
     
    Insanity pictures
     
     
     
    but even through all this, couldn't help thinking about you <3
     
     
  6. Aerodynas
    Before the Sun


     

    Arisen and fallen doth the sun acquire,



    Its unwelcoming light numbers the moons to come.



    Men pray for strength, will, and a fire,



    Though it only bestows the blessed gift to some.



    Unfortunate clouds rally over my memory,



    Bringing a mist to my eyes though rain may not fall.



    The fiends corner my heartbeat and it's dark history,



    Again the blood flows to its call.


     

    Oh how I have sought the end to this madness,



    The end that nary may be too forgone.



    The horizon shall not quench my thirst or take my sadness,



    Nor shall it bring light to this simplistic pawn.



    Alas there is the light for me yet,



    That one protruding ray of hope.



    Its face is that of my kin and allies I have met,



    I grasp tight as they pull on that rope.


     

    Across the sky dost the chariot return to its sleep,



    We who reek with pain and disorient follow suite.



    Our work is finished and we look to dreams that we pray to reap,



    But I simply request serenity that is soothing as the lute.



    No time, no deed, no smile to find,



    The horse rider will cross the heavens without cease.



    Perhaps the morrow will choose to be kind,



    And at last may the sun bring me peace.


     

    -March 2013


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