Oddball

Hello everyone! I hope you're all doing stupendously well. Tonight, I've got something a bit melancholic. It's harsh. It's a bit callous in its contents. It may even hurt to think that it might be you or me. Today, I read in a book, The Forty-Eight Laws of Power, that stated it would be better to avoid the unfortunate and unhappy. This could be a bit more concise, so let me shrink it down. It isn't saying that anyone in this certain state should be avoided. It's the ones who let it dominate them to a point its detrimental. People who don't know how to quell the anguish they hold so tightly to. Why avoid it? Because it is contagious. In their own self-loathing they have a tendency to tether others into their sorrow. It suggested in the end that we should associate with the happy and confident rather than those who resent others, those who hate themselves, or the poor souls who can't let go of the miseries of their past. As provocative as this is, I found that I could not help but understand its logic. I once had a friend that I knew for three and a half years. Every day, we would get online and play games, but he was easily roused to ire. Soon, it would devolve from two friends playing games to a man yelling and slamming his fist into a concrete wall, which I could hear both. He had no sense of self-esteem, despite my attempts to help him. and he was suicidal claiming that only if he was brave enough, he'd do it. I always countered saying," That's only what a coward would do!" I wasn't a therapists, I didn't know how to treat a man such as him. Sometimes, when everyone was having fun, even him, he'd remark about how his life would go nowhere after someone would state how they were doing well in their own. As you might have deduced through reasoning and , possibly, your own experiences, he was suffering from what I believe is chronic depression. I eventually fell into this same pattern of thought. I immersed myself in that same void of his until about four months ago, when I basically abandoned him. I suppose that I was just another on the list of people who gave up. During a certain point I started to feel like I was exiled to a life of failure, he said that's how he felt. What do you think? Should we avoid these types of people, or should we devote our best to helping them realize that everything can be meaningful?

You're great from looks of it, which why you would think so low of yourself is just depressing. However, the facial expression could use a bit of work, but dear god man! You're good so don't be so harsh on yourself. Look at all you got right! Constructive evaluation, that's what you need. Not,"Oh, you know, I'm not that great, I just know how to shade, draw human figures, draw hair, and make it seem like there wearing clothes. But you know, I'm that talented..."

I enjoyed your review, however, certain areas felt desperate and awkward to me. It's 9:58 and 11:06, which I liked how you used a different show convey how mundane and emotionless she was acting, I just don't quite understand the purpose of acting like she is an alien, that put me off. You might find it better to put the epilepsy warning at the beginning of the video with a black background instead of in lower right corner on that mostly white background were it blends in. Keep up the good work boss.

And can anyone tell me why my attempts to indent each new paragraph are met with resounding failure when I finish editing?

Have you ever seen anything more perfect than this? I labored for quite a while getting this just right, and I'm glad that I put in the extra hour it took. XD

Hello! I'm so glad you could stop by as I attempt to live a life void of games. In this blog, I shall attempt to convey life without the need for the latest GPU, CPU, RAM, etc. Or the need relieve that thought in my head to grind out that new level, grabbing that new armor tier, or earning that one exotic that I just CAN'T live without. Instead, I'll focus on things such as reading, drawing, and stories from life. Why deprive myself of such luxuries you might ask. Well, games are fun. To such an extent that they can make some put off their entire day to play them. I am one of those insatiable souls who can't seem to say, 'No,' when the dreaded statement arrives,"Just five more minutes." Now, whether this desire to abstain from being the Deathlord of Acherus or the person who gets interrogated by Caveira will last, I don't know, but for now it exist and until I feel the need to change it, I'll blog about my day. So let's jump in, shall we? Today, I was left stranded at home due to the recent malfunctions of my car and it releasing toxic gases into interior of the vehicle. It was left at the shop so mechanics could work their genius and find a solution to its rather detrimental problem. This left me with no means to reach school, which was unfortunate, but left me open to practice art and study things that have consumed a great deal of my interest recently. I'm happy to report that poring my time into a book about drawing proved fruitful, and have now created what I believe is one of the best drawings - sketch might be a bit more fitting - that I've ever made! It was demanding! It said," Give me everything, or nothing at all!" I responded by sparing no expense to this arduous project, and what might be the final outcome you ask? A very good three-dimensional circle. That's right, a circle. One that I'm very proud of at that, and while I would show you, it is to big to squeeze into the file attachment. But if you're still writhing with curiosity, you can go to the "Non-Pony Artwork" forum, area, or whatever you call it, and search up "My Best Drawing Yet!" Feel free to be amazed by its awe inspiring beauty(And laugh at its over-dramatic creator). That's all for today. While it may seem a tab bit abrupt, I hope everyone enjoyed the blog and I hope your day is at the very least a fair one. Goodbye and goodnight.

To the center of the universe. My name is perfect I wouldn't take any other in the world. Because he knows to much and the sentients will not permit him to exist!

Oh? I absolutely hate having to many friends! You can't get to all of them and how in God's name does someone expect to have so many? Hell! I have ten friends on my console and strangely enough it feels like I've gone overboard! XD

Bah! What am I saying I'm sending you a friend request!

Anyway... You're depressed because you're lonely and people find you... off? Considering I don't know your age, and you claim to be older then you are. And loneliness makes the heart grow fonder! May I send you a friend request?

Truth be told I do find it difficult to find someone genuinely smiling about something. But I prefer to express what I'm feeling I don't really think I could feign a smile well I could, but I feel restricted when I try around people. I guess it's just not my way of doing things. Ever been asked, "why don't you smile?" It's not that I don't want to more or less, but not much of what most talk about interest me. I experience joy maybe not through facial expression but as some say, "smiling on the inside." If I'm using that correctly smiling is more when I'm over-joyed to the point where the inside just can't keep it together. I like it, and oddly enough hate it I guess it's because I don't have control over what I'm doing. :I I call myself Oddball because I find myself rather queer(weird) from the rest.

Honestly I don't see what's wrong with you(well then again I can't see you at all). Some people are just like that. More unique then others so they might just see you strange because you act out. Then again I've talked to you only for a couple of minutes.

Hmm... Well this interesting. I have a friend who seems to have a mind set of yours more or less. But anyway this is just my perspective on things but I could care less for purpose in a place where my assistance is truly not needed. I actually like it! It tells me I am free... Well, to a degree. But that being said purpose surrounds us... Maybe even to much of it! I know I might be treading on thin ice here. Forgive me if I may have even offended you. I'm just sharing my thoughts here. But if you're really wanting some more significant purpose I suppose to start what interest you?

That was stupendous! Every piece of music I hear these days I can't help but love it! What program do you use?

Yep! Going out with a bang is a lot better with music! =P

That was so beautiful it had me in tears! XD

My first time watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic and liking it. XD Oh! And Algebra... Can't forget good ole Algebra. ;-;