I have been thinking about this for a month now and just had my decision reaffirmed by a reality check with someone who cares for me.
I have been having a rough time lately, as you've probably seen form my status updates, with my depression. I am having to reevaluate who I am, who I want to be, and who I am becoming. This is not as easy to do as it sounds. I am used to not having to do things myself and suddenly, now that I've graduated, I have to do many new things on my own. The problem? I never feel that I have time to properly address these problems on any day.
I've thought about it for a month now and come to the conclusion that I have taken all of my time and devoted it to this website, among others.
My daily routine consists of:
wake up
get on computer
go to work (if applicable)
go to bed
Notice how there is no "eat lunch" or "take morning shower" in there. I didn't leave them out because they are unsaid routines. I left them out because they are literally not a part of my daily routine anymore. Yes. It is absolutely disgusting. I know.
I am, by no means, blaming Feld0, the Forums, or the internet in general for this. I am the only one who had any say in whether this became this way or not. I can only blame myself, and only I can fix it.
I need to figure out what is really a priority now in my life. And it isn't an MLP forum that I joined to sate my boredom in a computer class during my Junior year of high school.
I am not leaving the forums for good, not right now anyways, but I am going to cut my time on here down from 6-12 hours a day, to around 1-2 hours in the evening. This means, for some of you, that I won't be seen or heard from anymore. I'm sorry, but I have to be selfish here.
I love this website, but it can't be my life anymore.
comment all your grief/hate on here. My decision is made. If I trusted you enough to add you on Skype, then you may contact me there. Please don't use Steam to contact me.
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