Dawnshine Wonder

I still have to wait 2 months before another appointment about that lump that is on my chest. It hasn't gotten any larger, so probably not anything serious. At the same time though I've had it with this world, when we cease to exist, suffering ends. If something does kill me in my sleep whether it be an abnormal growth or something else, I'm passive about it, not giving two hoots. There's only so much disillusionment somebody can take before they stop giving a damn. Because every day it's the same problem. Wishing for a fantasy to happen does not make it so, no matter what it is.