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The truth.
This has been bugging me for a while now. I want to explain a feeling I felt quite some time ago. I don't really remember when I felt this, but it was a few years ago. A very faint sense of death, like it was not far off. It felt all too real. I haven't taken drugs or anything to get that. I just felt it. It was like looking into the inside of a pipe, and seeing something dark, but only for like a second.
I've spent so many years raging and fuming inside, hating, scheming, lying, that the presence of that whatever it is, it actually felt refreshing, despite the assurance of death.
I've wasted away, gone through the motions, walked the same boring path. And that path lead me right back home, to sleep away the night, and come back tomorrow to do it again. It's all the same stuff. I haven't truly been happy for years and years. I'm tired of being the upbeat one. I just want to lay in bed and pull the covers over my face.
The prophecy needs to come quicker. I'm getting bored of this bland materialistic life, where men in suits tell me what to do and what not to. "Go this way, do that." I am not in control of anything. I do not have freedom or civil rights or the right to anything, but the law says I do. It's so boring. And the distractions like mlp aren't helping me anymore.
I want to die, honest. I'm not suicidal or any dumb stuff like that. I'm just tired. I listen to others scream about how their brothers, of their brothers, of their brothers, are evil dirty monsters, and that they all should be publicly executed. I'm dragged back down as I reach the surface, by hate mongering imbeciles whose only purpose in life is to be disgusting. They put me back on the angry emoji pills and I'm back to square one. I become what they are.
It's never going to change.
It will get worse and worse, as sibling kills sibling, mother kills father. Until some fool finally does launch the nukes.
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After considering my options, I'm not going to post here anymore.
Yo you guys stay excellent and keep doing your own thing.
See you!