Do svidaniya

Kinda tired and wasn't looking forward to the rest of the night but thankfully there was a pack of jerky left over from the hike the other day which has taken the edge off. 

44 minutes ago, Interstellar Sketch said:

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I was thinking about how my social anxiety makes it hard for me to communicate exactly what I want to say. You see me super energetic and overall out there on here, but in real life..I'm really just an extremely anxious person who hardly speaks. I sometimes have to write down what I want to say and give it to the person because talking is a challenge. I'm still anxious on here too. I try to write something, but I delete it, write, start over again, and write again. And even then I don't like what I said. I don't know, sorry, I'm just bad at talking. 

 

 

Oh man I completely feel this, talking to people is hard. 

Especially when people chronically misunderstand what you say and it's so difficult to set it straight after that, smile and nod seems to be the best doctrine when people talk sometimes. Doesn't do much to keep a convo going, though. 

32 minutes ago, ComanderZhabikKlavik said:

Ginseng Oolong Tea.

I drink tea and listen to music

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This music and picture perfectly convey my emotional state. On Tuesday there will be a term paper due at the technical school, I need to have time to make a presentation in Powerpoint for it and a title page. I could have done it today, but I'm tired. Tomorrow at work I need to ask my colleagues something, but because of my shyness it is hard for me to ask anything, of course it was even harder before, now it is easier, but it is still hard for me. I have not been in a very good mood all day today because of this. All this is putting pressure on me. I need to have time to do a lot tomorrow, but I don't like that I can't do the main thing tomorrow - programming. Programming is the only way for me to a bright future, if I don't learn to program, then I will work in a factory all my life, and I hate the factory and all professions that are related to production. I don't want to go to this damned job and make a presentation for a term paper at the technical school, because I know that it is useless for me. I don’t like the fact that I’ve wasted so much time on all this and will still lose it, although I could have started studying to be a programmer earlier, but unfortunately I didn’t know then that I would like this professionNow I have to go through hell to achieve my goal. The main thing when you go through hell is not to stop

I decided to do a workout not long ago and I felt much better. If I always had the same state as during a workout, my life would become much better

Since I'm tired, you'll think that I need a rest, but my rest always turns into procrastination for several weeks, I won't let this happen anymore! So I won't rest, I rested today. I walked in the forest today and I think that's enough for me

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I have too little time and too many tasks and goals that I need to accomplish

I recently bought a fountain pen and I love it so much! I will never go back to other pens, I will write with a fountain pen

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Thank you for linking that piece of music, I think I've found what I'll be playing on the night shift tonight.

Your fountain pen reminds me I bought a new notebook a few months back and I had been intending to get a fountain pen or feather quill to use in it. (Dramatic, I know.)

It sounds like you've got an intense path before you my friend, remain steadfast and with conviction on your goals and you will achieve victory. Do allow yourself to take some time for rest though for your mind to recharge and avoid burnout, programming sounds very intensive for the brain and it's imperative to give it a moment to rest as well, just find that amount of rest that feels right for you.

Godspeed, Commander.

So I was checking out notification settings and I noticed these options:

I'm not convinced these are such a good idea, might lead people to think that someone has personal issues with them and lead to bad blood between members when the reason doesn't need to be that deep and may lead to people feeling like they can't reject it without fear of potentially offending someone.  It'd be kinda like if you got a notification that someone put you on the ignore list, it doesn't really serve a good purpose.

Very rarely add sugar to my tea, I'll add some honey and lemon though if I'm feeling ill with a sore throat.

Hah I've had this exact thought recently as well the other night, was thinking "If I were the Evil Changeling rank and about to become the Reformed one I'd have to stop posting."

Maybe I should leave a little earlier for my shift tonight and see if anyone at the injury unit can take a look at my hand, I don't think it should still be hurting like this after almost a week. Just to make sure it's nothing more serious.

Drinking some Mahmood Cardamom tea in my ancient coffee mug, I think I need to get a new tea mug.

Times have been difficult lately, I have not been enjoying life as much. I have several projects I want to continue and actually finish after so long but motivation is low.

I hope everyone else is doing well.

4 hours ago, Raskolnikov said:

God no, Disney has ruined enough franchises they've acquired as is. It'd be a bunch of hairy photorealistic monstrosities that scare children to death with how they do "live action" films now and they'd all lose all characterisation and become mere walking plot devices that go from point A to point B with the world's most awkward, robotic lines. The death of standards.

Disney is disgusting. I definitely want to see a real life horse MLP.

I have decided that I ain't budging. I extend my gratitude to @Bairro M Vagrant for his help.

7 hours ago, Interstellar Sketch said:

Wait, does that mean you're leaving the Forums? (⁠｡⁠•́⁠╭⁠╮⁠•̀⁠｡⁠)

People aren't as caring as they pretend to be, unless it's very specific people.

You know, I can see this clearly isn't the place where I really belong. People get uncomfortable, don't they.

Y'all enjoy my smilie archive when they get added, I'm checking out. At least they're getting a home.

Moments ago, Slumberlumber said:

The earth explodes.

Sweet silence, at goddamned last. Where's the button because I'm going to press it myself.

8 minutes ago, Slumberlumber said:

Wait you have a parrot doing that?

He has a parrot, he got it a few months ago and it has been ruining our lives ever since.

Every morning I come home from my shift and I look at my bed, knowing that I can no longer use it.

This started right after I'd finally gotten this room feeling like a sanctuary after escaping a lifetime of an abusive living situation before, and now he has robbed it from me as well.

I am the fury of a thousand suns.

1 minute ago, Slumberlumber said:

Perhaps we should weaponize the sound of an oscilating fan on you! Knock you out so bad, you sleed for FOUR months! -Laughs maniacally.-

The sounds of a parrot chirping as well as him whistling as loudly and obnoxiously as humanely possible at it deliberately because he knows it keeps me awake right in the adjacent room to my bedroom cuts through any white noise I have attempted to use and triggers my fight or flight response, there is no quarter.

1 hour ago, Raskolnikov said:

Well, if "the occasional chirp" isn't grounds for disruptive noise, this is certain to be acceptable...

We will weaponize his sounds against him, alongside everything else.

I haven't been able to sleep in my own bed for 3 goddamned months now.

I want my fucking bed back.

55 minutes ago, Raskolnikov said:

I hope not.

It just looks like an Australian version of Peppa Pig, and Peppa Pig, particularly the voices and lines, make me feel only one way.

Lmaooooo yup, we got to the very first line delivery before it was just "Oh."

The cursor moved to the little X of the tab and we never spoke of it again.

After almost a year I'm reasonably sure we've moved into an open air asylum.

I'm declaring this place an international disaster zone. Everyone, please calmly go to your nearest evacuation point and await further instruction.

MY PINKY HURTS AND SO DOES MY ENTIRE HAND BECAUSE OF IT. 

OKEI, I'm moving this topic on now...  Has anyone else noticed shit's fucked? I'm listening to a great song right now.

Moments ago, Raskolnikov said:

Yes!

YEP 100%. 

Moments ago, Raskolnikov said:

I'M ASEXUAL! I'M ASEXUAL. I'M ASEXUAL. I'M ASEXUA

SO AM I OMG

Moments ago, Raskolnikov said:

Yeah, I didn't even realise the joke, I just thought it was joking about being drowned in notifications out of nowhere /derp

You are a smooth brain.

3 minutes ago, Raskolnikov said:

Saying this cos I was shown a scene from Metro: Last Light and the "Hollywood" Russian accents in the English dub sounded so over the top...

Oh yeah, you play Metro in Russian or not at all as far as I'm concerned.

12 minutes ago, Bairro M Vagrant said:

You guys are all wake up late on Saturday, BORING~~

That's called a hangover from partying too hard.