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4 minutes ago, Hippity Hoppity Sketch said:

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I have a friend who's going through a similar situation as I and I just wonder: why have kids if you know you can't take care of them? Why have kids if all you want to do is reap the benefits they can provide when they're older? Why have kids when you know all you'll do is hate them? It's so upsetting and tiring living here. I wish I didn't have to grow up so fast to depend on myself because she didn't care. 

She made me grow up so fast so she didn't have to do anything. Mother, you actually have to teach me how to do certain things so I can do them. I won't just magically know. Mother, I was SIX (or maybe even younger), I could not reach the sink to get water. Mother, I was ten, I could not apply for college. Mother, I am learning something that's a grade higher and of course it's going to be harder. I'm doing my best. What more do some parents want from their children? I understand that you had a rough childhood, but I thought the goal was to make sure the next generation had a good one as well. I'm exhausted and feel like an adult with a full-time job. I'm probably going to be seventy mentally when I'm twenty. The good things that came out of this is everything she did not do: show compassion and kindness. I suppose it's good that I learned the opposite of what she demonstrated.

Mother is not going to change her ways. This is hopefully going to be the last time I talk about this since I feel bad for posting negative things here.

 

Never feel bad about posting negative stuff here, I think everyone would rather that than leave those thoughts and feelings bubbling inside of you. 

Gonna be a long night, no magic dust. 

This has big 2011 fandom energy, despite being from 2023. 

I prefer media where the creator doesn't take the money earned from it to lobby against the human rights of a marginalized group of people.

Twilight's character never recovered from becoming a princess.

Humanized ponies are the worst.

Starlight & Trixie are the best duo and their eps are some of the only ones worth watching from the later seasons.

Season 4 is the worst season.

Post S3 overall isn't very good and only enjoyed continued popularity from having already established characters and laid the initial groundworks for why G5 is bad.

Been replaying Trine 2 on co-op, an incredibly fun game.  Need to grab the others when they're on sale as well. 

Guitar picks. Today one disappeared within 20 seconds of picking it up.

Went to the store, recorded a few tracks of music for a piece I'm working on and then have been playing Trine 2 with @Raskolnikov. Going to be getting ready for work in about half hour.

If you can hug cats and dogs without feeling weird you can hug a sheep.

1 minute ago, Raskolnikov said:

Better not @me again psycho, I know where you live and I'm calling my lawyer as we SPEAK

Bend your face around my hoof, biatch.

I know @Raskolnikov as we've been living together the past 10 years.

Aside from that, no. I learnt my lesson a long time ago about meeting other people on forums.

Guitar (Electric, Acoustic and Bass), learning to play the bouzouki and I dabble with keys as well. Though I too would love to learn black metal shrieks for atmosphere.

A disrespectful one that I have distanced myself from.

Wearing: Ancient 'We Love Fine' Rainbow Dash shirt from 2011 which now serves as a night shirt, light Partizan camo trousers.
Hair: Long.
Eating: Nothing.
Drinking: Mahmood tea.
Thinking: "Need to re-record that ebow section..."
Feeling: Ok.
Talking to: Raskolnikov.
Listening to: Something I recorded yesterday.
Watching: The screen.
Loving: Spring.
Hating: Neighbour.
Wanting: A bass amplifier.
Waiting for: For my procrastinatory ass to respond back to the seller about his bass amplifier.
Weather: Warm and sunny.
Time: Early afternoon.
Hoping: For resolution.
Situation: Alive.

My ear simply must stop being weird, its been so long now.

Just standard brown eyes here.

Another 6 hours of brutal death metal, got it. 

29 minutes ago, Hippity Hoppity Sketch said:

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My mother cursed me out and always pretends like it's a joke. Clearly, I don't find it funny, but she keeps saying "f you f you f you f you" in a voice that she thinks is funny. I continuously tell her, "I have a feeling you're not joking and you're actually projecting how you really feel by pretending it's a joke." Today, she admitted it. I don't want to be here anymore. She does things like this so much I just feel like I'm not worthy of love. I try to stay to positive but it's so hard to with someone like her around. When will this end?

 

Yeah nah this behaviour ain't it. This isn't a good person. Stay resilient and know one day you'll be rid of her, and there's nothing wrong with that if you never speak to her again in the future.

Blasting the power of the Sunn through the wall is a source of great amusement. 

Realized that the new Dragon Prince season had been out since December without noticing.  Gonna be watching that over a few days, or day. 

Ah, tonight's 10 hours of heartbeat will soon be concluded.  Pray to whatever deity that I don't bring it back tomorrow night. Or, inshallah, something worse. 

Beat beat goes the heart, it's definitely been 5 hours.

THE SONIC WAR WILL CONTINUE UNTIL THERE IS SILENCE AND I HAVE MY HOME BACK. 

I know what Hell is, I just don't believe in it. As far as I'm concerned Hell is already amongst us.

One ticket for the Hell train please.