Raskolnikov

fbfkgjjd same. Just wire me up I am here on a mission give me the stimulant juice.

Honestly they're generally high ^^", I MUCH prefer quality over quantity. I do allow for very casual friendships but I have zero expectations for them as most people fade in and out of people's lives anyway and I don't expect reciprocation from experiences. Idk I think I have different expectations from friendships than most people lol. For good friends, a good degree of shared values is important but so is putting effort into a friendship - if one can't apply their proclaimed values into their interpersonal relationships, then I won't really trust them very well either. And if they treat people badly... I'm outta here. I can deal being by myself if it means not being surrounded by bad influences. I especially won't tolerate excusing abusers and abusive behaviour.

I know what you mean lol, I try to avoid public bathrooms as much as possible in general. It used to be worse, I used to be too embarrassed to want to go to the bathroom, oooooh don't let anyone know you have biological functions Raskolnikov, pls they will figure out the secret if they catch you, look at this shameful beast

Not great, don't think practicing is going to work today... now that the CrisisTM I was stressing about is over everything has settled back to feeling like everything is maddeningly wrong again. I think I need to work at a crisis hotline of something lol

I'd wear a company shirt or something but I haven't been given one yet from my newer job despite starting months ago and telling them this lol It's just a black top and khaki trousers and boots, I'm glad it's nothing formal tbqh

Intelligence is about dryly memorising and parroting outdated textbooks and following instructions unquestioningly and the more parroting and obeying you do the more intelligentsier you are.

Primal instincts activating when on the white porcelain I guess

Also some of us are passing out on the toilet. Please.

The infamous bathroom threads strike again This is twisted. We have a winner. Mods, lock this thread please.

Bureaucratic employees I'm begging you please just let me write it down myself 🙏🥲

Death/doom and gothic/doom concerts

I am so bad at responding to DMs or emails

What do you mean..... The shower is one of the BEST times for manifesting the void and spacing out, what do you think one does in there for an hour if NOT spacing out?! smh

Calling the villagers "The Village BBC" is still one of the funniest jokes my mum has made. Absolute banger, nosy gossiping fucks

Aw man I don't think my sciatica will go anywhere considering even with ibuprofen I've had to bend at work so many times that my back feels as if I had no painkillers at all telling me not to bend as much doesn't help when I constantly have to do it for work or I can't do my job...

The Last Flower by Shores of Null

Euro Truck Simulator 2... all I'm getting from this is I'm never driving in Berlin, all those speeding tickets just because I drive in the city at 80km+ using a lorry

Wait... am I even reading this right? You got in trouble for that image?! o_o

@ComanderZhabikKlavik I love that you are very kind, thoughtful and curious about multiple subjects, we need more of that curiosity on this earth I respect someone who is both empathetic and has the mind of a scientist. You are also really cool... also you like metal so MASSIVE BROHOOF @EtchASketch you are sweet and too pure for this world, thanks for being friendly to everyone on here : D I appreciate your concerns over everyone here, sorry if I worry sometimes I just wish you the same kindness you give to others and I hope you know it's okay to be angry and upset at cruelty. :[ @Bairro Moetriet Vagrant I love your posts, and I also hope you know it's okay to vent to us and let out what's bugging you, even the angry stuff - we worry. :c I also appreciate how you care and respond to so many people here. You can do no wrong in my eyes. @Clawdeen you are so damn funny that your posts kill me everytime, and I love how you don't give a shit and just say what's on your mind. Full respect for a shitposter @Crypty Scribbles thanks for checking in on me, you seem really friendly and good mannered and I appreciate your peaceful presence here :] @Street Light I saw you knowing a whole bunch of shit about history and I basically saw the Sims ++ to socialisation in my head. Then I saw you play Paradox games and the popup showed up again. Love it and Iove your posts, keep on keeping on I guess lol :] Not limited to just these people, to be continued in the future... shfksjfmsjf

HEY Hmmmmm... ExplosionMare?

Chicken is the worst for this... Uh, mold... is one thing. I am of the strict belief that anything coloured in such alarming and unusual ways is not of this planet and should stay away from me at all costs Plus... why does it look... hairy!!!! Nooooo

I try to avoid US related news... I'm not saying I succeed at it considering it's everywhere, even in other countries' news

Guy in a sports car speeding at a roundabout then almost hitting me, why am I not surprised really? you in such a hurry in your sports car to get groceries? How old are you? Kinda scary cos if I hadn't jumped out of the way he would have certainly hit me jfc!!!

Earl Grey tea, with a very angry and neglected amp in the background Still no Madoka mug, feel free to clown on me for procrastination :p I finally have stuff to report on so I decided to finally make a post again! Apologies for taking a while, I do read stuff on here, I just want to make sure I'm not in too bad of a mood before I post. I already shared with you my own experiences on PM, but I just wanted to add that I recently saw on another forum that I ended up accidentally describing a dissociative episode on another forum years ago when *I* was a child, cos apparently I felt very confused/"dizzy" and like stuff isn't real, which is how they feel to me these days as well. I didn't remember this so I was glad it was recorded on that other forum, but yes - I think a few of us have experienced dissociation of varying degrees... It's just a sign of being emotionally overwhelmed and unable to cope I suppose. But yeah it is a sign to maybe take a deep breath In any case things have been strange recently, but also in a positive way I suppose. I am happy to say I have started seeing my violin tutor again so I'm very pleased about that, and I'm even more pleased that despite my break from lessons she didn't see me develop any bad habits and she was even happy about my vibrato, so I'm feeling rather positive about this :] she's really funny and works with my jokes and demeanour, I'm really glad because I am actually rather scared when playing around a tutor but instead of potentially scolding me for not taking things seriously by joking around she is also relaxed and understands. I have heard some really bad things about the experiences of other violin teachers being too strict or scary, especially to kids, and that horrifies me I am also happy to report it seems my mother has stated she isn't gonna be selling my granddad's woodland and stated she will not sell any part of the property at all. I was so worried I ended up talking to my father again, and thankfully there's been no drama and it means I can discuss other such matters with him. I had heard he was considering selling his *own* parents' property which had saddened me as I also have memories of that place, but I didn't say anything then... Messing with someone's death wishes and a gift to me, however, was just way out of line on a moral level it's just a strip that would normally have been either farmland or just a passage to my grandparents' field but my granddad planted a lot of trees along the path when I was born so I could have them... Okay I'm gonna get sad now so I'll switch the subject but at least it was nice to stand up for him finally even if he's not around to see it anymore.