Raskolnikov

'One night it happened, The morning never came It has been snowing ever since. The plague of cold harvests the land And only few still wait for the sun. Cities are buried under white curse Remains of the man lay on the glacial ground. The monuments of ice curve upon us Leading our way to the bitter end. One night it happened, The morning never came. The clocks tick anew this same hour of dark. And if we had only known That it would last forever, We would have forgiven ourselves And let the snow bury us together. One night it happened, The morning never came Now it's been seven years ever since. The season of dark fell upon us And only few still wait for the sun. Cities are buried under white curse Remains of the man lay on the glacial ground The monuments of ice curve upon us, Leading our way to the bitter end. One night it happened, The morning never came The clocks tick anew this same hour of dark. And if we had only known That it would last forever, We would have forgiven ourselves And let the snow bury us together.'

I don't know about *favourite* - I do have to say that there is something uniquely pleasing about playing the violin I don't get from other instruments :] (I'm sure cellists and violists etc feel that too?) sometimes when applying the rosin you can see some of it flying off if I'm sitting in the sunlight and it's the most mesmerising thing ever, am I in the His Dark Materials intro? And feeling the smoothness the bow on the strings is a feeling you can't get from a pick in my experience! It can be quite the patient grind to learn the violin but it really does feel like it pays off those moments where it just feels good and you fought hard to get to that point :] That said I do enjoy playing the guitar too as it has a different vibe and most things I listen to are electric guitar based so obviously the guitar is up there in my favourites, I'm actually not sure which instrument I'd pick as #1... they all have their place and picking a top one is too restricting to me. (I need to kick my own ass some more and get more comfortable with the guitar too... my violin is my main focus I take seriously so my poor baritone gets forgotten sometimes. I gotta learn how to do rhythm parts hmmm)

I used to always pay attention to song lyrics and it would be the first reason a song would catch my interest, because I was sick of pop music having the most shallow themes imaginable - but recently I've turned around completely and refuse to pay attention to the lyrics first, only looking them up if I particularly like a song. My reasoning is this: there are songs for any lyrical subject out there if you go out there looking, so what should matter is that you like the actual music! I've found some stuff I listened to doesn't hold up anymore because I have found music that covers those themes AND has music I really really click with, so it became clear I didn't actually like the music as much as I thought (and I read poetry these days for that so I don't need to listen to things I don't vibe with anymore). It's helped me figure out what I like musically much more. Of course, if the vocals have some real trashy shit that is also hard to ignore in the music then it does become a problem :x so many bands just need to stick to instrumental only oh my god... all the above said I still think lyricism is important and can really help a track a LOT, it just shouldn't be the only thing carrying a song ;]

Yes, though the residue left over by some pork months ago that still dares linger in spots I haven't caught yet is making me rethink my consumption every day lol I would like to cut down on meat and dairy and just keep it to more ethical purchases when I do buy them (not only do I hate industrial farming but the supermarket meat tastes like ass to boot so what even is the point) but I gotta learn more vegetarian recipes too, my only issue is figuring out vegetarian/vegan dishes that are filling and make big portions as I didn't get dietary needs met very well growing up and like the energy from having well balanced meals.

Assholes, mostly, LOL There's a derogatory term for someone who is from the capital of the country in my language if it's any indication... That's ok, we haven't managed to civilise the rest yet but they will learn in time and their tongues won't be so quick to talk crap :p

The Morning Never Came by Swallow The Sun. Dunno why the opening keys of the first track give me an existential crisis. They have a strange painful nostalgia attached to them.

He has ARRIVED Fix my allergiessss

Is a week of normalcy the best we can hope for anymore.

^ I mean, she had left bird droppings inside the bathroom on the window. . WHAT?! Did she even shower???? HOW UNSANITARY IS THAT AHHHHH

Well it SHOULD be an air filter but nothing's here. :|

Can't believe it's been almost a year and we're STILL cleaning up spots left by the old tennant... that woman didn't even try, good lord how did you live like that?!? If my surroundings aren't clean and tidy I legitimately lose my mind very quickly...

I'm asexual so it doesn't apply - infinite vengeance on the other hand...

The Dragon Prince I think, didn't realise it was meant to be the whole series finale as a whole so I wasn't upset until I looked up discussion online and people are ready to set fire to the studios lol Aaron fucked up cos the toxic fratboy culture at the workplace making lots of staff leave after S3 doomed this show I think, what an arrogant ass. Such a shame too, it's still one of the most fun fantasy show universes and this is how they treated it???

That residue is gonna be enough to make me stop eating pork completely

Depends how tall the trees in the region are so she can reach the leaves and stay fed and hydrated without trouble, otherwise she has to migrate to another part of the savannah. If she can't take control of her destiny she's not the one fellas.

Warning for abuse etc. Yeah, it wasn't a happy last memory lol. The abuse was related to the poor performance it was a whole thing for years. (I'm FAR far away from her for a decade now so it's fine.)

The real question is when don't I feel like I'm being watched. And the answer is... at home... with all blinds shut. And even then I may still get paranoid someone is going to break in. Hmm.

I want to practice adding some accents to this so it has more expressivity, think I gotta focus on that for now so pieces have more life into them

There is no such thing. IQ is based on racial eugenics and is pseudoscience.

Exactly this, and from observation and experience 99.9% of parents should never have had children, are incapable of unconditionally loving them and have too much baggage from their own childhoods that they just thoughtlessly pass on - commuting on places like buses can stress me out considerably simply from witnessing how horribly parents can interact with their kids, or give literal infants tablets... too many just enjoy being pathetic failed tyrants going on a power trip on the only human beings they can feel they have control over to make up for their weak personalities. It repulses me that they can just casually have children and our abuse-normalising society just gives them a pass to do as they wish. It also just sounds like a horrible time and money sink. I'll take my money and freedom to explore the world and my interests and figure myself out and if I ever somehow get old enough to need a "carer" you can take me out back and shoot me as I'd not be interested in living up to an age where my hypothetical child would have to take care of me anyway. I have zero interest in the "norm".

Even when you think you know yourself, no you don't.

Going to bed! Haha! Ha! Please?

Yes... 50 lashes.

Patience with all the goddamn bullshit I put up with in this life.

Been to one as a child, I think either some friend or relative of my dad was getting married? But I knew no one and it was rather dull. Don't care one bit for them but if a friend thought I'm important enough to have at a wedding I'd come... but only for their sake :p