GuitarHero12

I'm surprised how many people talk depression and how MLP saved them from it. I also was suffering from depression back until around March this year. I come from a relatively wealthy family, but honestly wealth doesn't mean ANYTHING when it comes to happiness. I've done what other people would deem to be amazing things (like flying planes) but honestly, I just didn't care for these things. For me, I didn't know why I was so depressed all the time. I also cried myself to sleep, and every day I woke up, I never looked forward to the day. I just wanted to keep sleeping forever honestly... I had my ambitions, and I had my accomplishments, but for some reason I was never ever really happy. I began working out in an effort to relieve some stress. It worked, but still I was a horribly sad person. I've always loved racing, whether it be by bike, car, swimming... But namely car racing (the legal kind). Being an 18 year old, I worked my fl8nk off for a car I could barely upkeep with a horrible job (parents don't like me racing, they want me to have a career in classical piano). Having an expensive hobby/ambition at my age is the stupidest thing one could do, right? But It's hard to break old habits. I honestly never felt happy at all unless I was driving. I used to just cruise around for hours every day, listening to music, just thinking about life and getting away from the world, namely my family and home. I know this is trivial, but for me it's my passion and I've been around cars all my life. A few weeks after I started my horrible job, I happened to come across MLP. And wow. My life REALLY changed after that. My friend that I game with one day, he linked me to the Living Tombstone's Smile Smile Smile remix, and Alex. S's Party with Pinkie Pie. Needless to say, this got me interested in the show, and I started from episode 1. I remember a long time ago, I tried watching it but I just exited in the first minute. But this time was different, I just kept watching and I actually enjoyed it. For some reason, it just got me hooked. I looked forward to waking up for once in my life I had something to look forward to. And of course, Rainbow Dash became my favorite pony. The sonic rainboom episode, cutie mark chronicles, and the gala episodes really hit my heartstrings. I realized that she shared the same passions as I do, and everything she did was not without reason (like taking naps in the day, seriously, it's to rebuild your muscles after a hard workout). Her dreamer personality made me cry countless times. I'm a dreamer myself, and she was such a huge inspiration for me. She also had similar faults as me, such as being too confident and arrogant sometimes! For once in my life, I could relate to someone! I was horribly close to commiting suicide MANY times earlier this year. I absolutely hated my job, I lost all my friends (I failed a highschool class so could not graduate the same year), I hated my family, I'm socially awkward (I know I have a great personality inside me, but I'm always too shy and quiet so people don't like me), my hobbies cost too much money, I was just stuck in my room all day on my computer talking on skype with some gamers from across the globe... but I was forcing myself extremely hard because I wanted to discipline myself, become self-dependent, and most of all, I wanted to chase my dreams of becoming a race car driver. Every day before work, I would just watch MLP or go on the communities, remind myself how much I love my passions, how great life really is. Every night after work, I would go jogging/walking to MLP songs for hours, again, to get away from life. I'm convinced I would be dead if it weren't for MLP. Not only the story of RD in the main show, but the community itself really showed me strength. I saw all these relatively small-time artists, showing off their passions, creating some of the best, the BEST, artwork, music, stories I have ever seen, heard, or read. Overall, I'm now a much happier person. I still have trouble sometimes, waking up, being sad sometimes, being anti-social, but I don't cry myself to sleep anymore, I only occassionally think about commiting suicide, and of course, I got a reason to live... to fly with those great ponies haha! JJ