Winter Nocturne (Envy)

By Envy

• November 12, 2013




Age: Mid 20s

Gender: Female

Species: Earth Pony

Appearance: ^Picture

Cutie Mark: A Treble clef in front of a whirlwind, symbolizing her love for wind instruments.

Personality: A pony that is best described as very temperamental. She has a lot of issues in her life, that she primarily keeps to herself. She tries to cover up her gloominess by bringing out her childish, bouncy and random side that for some reason she seldom showed in her childhood. However, she oftentimes fails, as she can be very irritable, argumentative, and even hot-headed.<br /><br />Deep down she knows that positive attitudes and optimism are the best, but she finds them hard to maintain for herself. However, if there is even one positive trait you can find in her, it's that she is incredibly determined. While she will sometimes act like she's going to quit, she never is able to.<br /><br />There is a more noticeable flaw in her personality, though: She is rarely ever satisfied with what she has, or anything about her. She is very self-conscious. She notices the more beautiful fillies amongst her, which can lead her to look in the mirror and not feel pretty at all. She also isn't very happy about having been born an Earth pony. She feels very left out, and somewhat inadequate compared to the unicorns and the pegasi, although she knows this is wrong, she can't help but feel that way.

Backstory: She grew up a relatively normal childhood. Her parents and grandparents were loving and provided with her with lots of love and not only everything she needed, but everything she wanted. They always encouraged her love for music, and even provided her with multiple instruments, no matter how expensive they might have been, when she wanted them.<br /><br />One thing she has always struggled with, but especially in her young teens, was being social. She was different, and before she ever knew it about herself, bullies picked on her for it. While it was especially her preference for other fillies, she has always been different from the others in many ways. She has always been seen as annoying, and has lost many of what she thought were great friends.<br /><br />She very much likes socializing and friends, but she has grown a lot of trust issues and is so cautious about making friends because of this, that she rarely makes new friends, and when she does, she can drive them off with her trust issues, as it makes her look untrustworthy as well. Although she is very loyal and only wishes to have long-term friends that can tolerate her annoyingness and not turn their back on her.<br /><br />She has made some new friendships and regained some old ones recently, but she is so scared about them falling apart that she may already be driving them all away.<br /><br />Before she underwent some major changes in her life that turned her whole world upside down, she was very immature and could not even begin to appreciate what she had. She was very depressing, and perhaps even found pleasure out of being depressing. This drove plenty of friends away from her all by itself, but also goes on to define why she strives for positivity now. She knows she was wrong, and now tries her hardest to hide the negative feelings deep down. Being told that her bouncy "annoying" side is just a nuisance really hurts her, but she knows she has to hide it.