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[Divided 1]

My Favourite Mane 6 Pony

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How you became a fan of My Little Pony

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Look, I'm not a brony. I was. But I gave it up. Well, I should start from the beginning. I was just surfing the internet one day for videos of TF2 when I stumbled across MLP FiM. I was dismissive at first. Eventually, I gave in and I took a look. I loved the show and for the next 6 months that was what I spent a lot of my free time thinking about. However as time went on, I started to doubt my love for the show. It always felt as though I was trying to force myself to laugh at the jokes. I felt ashamed, hiding it from the majority of my friends and family. I always frowned upon bronies for a couple of reasons (Conversion, disgusting art, etc.) Doubt started to sit in more than ever after two episodes (who will remain nameless for now) that had scenes that I could not stand. Eventually, my doubt developed into boiling anger and hatred. I was angry at the show for the pain it caused me. I was angry at the fan base for their fandom habits. I was angry at myself for getting involved in the show. My anger then turned into depression. I couldn't even look at pictures from the show without feeling sick to my stomach. It got so bad, I had to get a therapist.

 

It has been about two years since that whole situation. I have thought about the show everyday of my life since then. I sometimes still create scenarios of me and the characters in my head. I will even admit that I looked at some "clop". I know. I did what I hated about the fan base. Anyway, I have had some points when I have strongly considered getting back into the show. But I don't know if I can. I'm afraid I won't like it. I'm afraid the doubt will return.

 

By now, you probably are thinking I have OCD. Well, I do. Severe OCD. Sometimes I wonder if the forced laughter and the doubt were all designed compulsions to fool me (That is what OCD does). But If I really found the jokes funny, why did I feel forced to laugh? Why did I go on for 6 months? If I didn't like it I would have stopped. I even tried starting over from season 1 (I got all the way through season 2 before I quit).

 

Look, I don't blame you if you don't believe me. I know that I sound insane. But I have tried everything to get rid of the show from my life but no matter what I do, I can't. I have been thinking that if I can't run from it, I should give it another shot. A fair shot. I don't know if I gave the show a fair shot. I was so ashamed for being a fan. I didn't know about OCD when the whole situation went down. But then I think it might be best to just find another show to get into. One of the reasons I loved MLP was that it finally gave me a show that I could enjoy. When I lost that, I started to feel empty inside.

 

So why am I here? Like I said, I tried therapy and tried to move on. Those have each worked to a certain point but it isn't the closure that I desire. I have always considered asking the fans, but I dismissed it typically, expecting to get a flawed or biased opinion. But, I have decided that it can't do any harm. The question is simple. Should I give the show another chance or is it time to move on? Until I get the answer, I thought I would just see what the fan base was really like. You know instead of watch from a distance.

Edited January 22, 2014 by Divided

[Rocky Doo 39]

Welcome to the forums and you should give the show a good try it is a wonderful show and it does have some very good lesson's to it and it did help me through when one of my family member died.... well you should give the show any other chance! Plus they have new episodes now!

[Moonlight Magician 494]

I think you should give the show a chance. I hope you are able to enjoy the show and I wish you best of luck!

[Divided 1]

I want to restart at season 1. Is that wise?

[Rocky Doo 39]

Sure as heck is wise so you can remember the story line