This blog entry is long overdue and it is time I get this out there.

If it is not known by the title, I have a problem speaking. I speak very little or not at all when in school. This same thing happens when I am out with some friends (that are not from school.) Now here is the strange thing. I have no problem at all with public speaking in front of large crowds. I read the introduction to my 5th grade graduation, and performed multiple skits where I had the main speaking role.

So what could be the reason of this? Pretty much like everything else, it starts at home. Whenever I try to talk to anyone in my family, I have to repeat myself multiple times, am completely ignored, or just shot down mid-sentence.

Because of this, I usually talk to myself because "when no one else hears me, at least I hear myself." And with some strange irony, I'm always heard when I do talk to myself.

So where exactly am I going with this? I would love to talk to new people and make some new friends, but the fear of being rejected is instilled in my mind, the same thing at home when I try to speak.

tl;dr I have a problem talking to other people with the fear of being rejected.

Thank you to those who took the time to read this.