I don't know what direction I'm going, I don't know what the purpose of my being is, all I do is sit on the computer all day wondering why I even exist. There is no tl;dr, so just read if you care enough.
To give you the big picture, I've been having trouble in school ever since 7th grade, 3 and a half years ago. I didn't pay attention in class, I didn't have very many friends, I hated living with my mother, and in general I was kind-of sad. I don't know why I felt that way, (or why I still
