So this is just gonna be a blog of me writing about music that matters to me and why. Maybe I'll update it daily or just do it every once in a while I'm not really sure. But I wanted to write something about this:

I've had it stuck in my head over the past couple days. I couldn't even sleep last night because it was stuck in my head playing over and over lol.

Teen Titans may be my favorite childhood cartoon, if you could call it that, me being around 12 or 13 when it came out. My friends and I used to watch it every week without fail, and I'd watch it every chance I could in between Saturdays. Something about kid heroes really resonates with me I suppose, maybe it's that they have so much hidden potential and I think of myself the same way, full of hidden potential that I could bring forth if only I try hard enough.

But moving on, this song is of a time when Terra and Beast Boy were having fun at a carnival. Some of her final truly happy moments before her plans with Slade were unveiled. There's something that resonates with me when I hear this melody, it sounds happy but it also sounds like some sort of great tragedy will soon fall. Maybe it's just because I already know what happened afterwards.

The music manages to make me angry. It was because Beast Boy wasn't able to forgive Terra she was lost to Slade until it was too late. For whatever reason I dwell on this moment even after so many years later. There is something also about someone falling into despair and self destruction because they have lost someone else's respect or can't find forgiveness that truly angers me.

The cheerfulness of the music reminds me of Terra being happy, and it makes me wish things turned out different. Out of any moment from any story, I wish this had turned out differently more than anything else.

So those are some thoughts an old piece of music makes me think about, for anyone who cared to read.