Alright so i felt like i needed someone to talk to, and felt i didn’t have anyone i could talk to about this. Then i remembered that’s why i made this journal.

So, i don’t know if this is just me being down for some reason or not, but i think my lonely thing is going up another notch. Even though i can think of several people i love and care about a lot, I’m starting to think i have known them all for a very short period of time.

Like, the only people i care about i barely know.

Before i continue, i realized this sounds worse than it is, and i just want to get this out of the way - no, i am not suicidal. I have known a few people who were, and i realize I’m talking like they were, so i just want to get that out. I was just going to say that if i thought about it, it would be very easy for anyone to replace me, and most probably wouldn’t notice me being gone. No, that is not meant to imply that i plan on leaving, its a hypothetical.

Ugh, i guess this is good that I’m getting these thoughts out, i think i might be a bit worse off than i thought. Not really sure what to do about that.