Well good day that i would like to talk about, and nobody is on. Well, mostly good day.

I'll just go through it by time.

So for the first class i had a test in my figure drawing class where we had to know the different names of bones for the skeleton. I'm not great at drawing, and get frustrated, and so I'm not doing well in the class, so i decided "I am acing this fucking quiz".

Keep in mind, i don't study. Not because i don't care, but because it does not work well with me, at all. But for this i did. She had given us a picture of the skeleton with arrows pointing to the different bones, with labels. What i did was i drew the same thing, with arrows, but no labels, and i would go through seeing if i knew what names should be on each arrow. Then i would write what i could associate each bone with, along with the name on another page. Then i even would repeatedly write the name of a bone, while saying the name aloud and looking at the picture if i had trouble with a bone.

I did this several times throughout the weekend to get it down. Then i got plenty of sleep, shower, breakfast, the works.

I got to class, and i got almost every bone correct.

Here's the kicker: there were 33 bones, and only 24 were on the sheet she gave us. I got 22 of those, giving me a %66. Which is a D, in other words, below passing. I assumed she wouldn't want us to remember all 200+ bones, so i assumed the sheet was all she wanted, which is why i only knew those. In addition to that one of the bones on the sheet ended up drastically renamed in the quiz, which is why i didn't get it.

So i forgot the name of ONE bone, and got a failing grade. So yeah, i always start my day with the most frustrating class, which had been getting a bit better lately, only to make me wish i had dropped it in the beginning like i was going to at one point.

Alright, so there's the negative, however the day looks up from there.

Voice over class. We were giving our monologues on camera and getting feedback. For the most part this makes the day a bit dull, probably not the best thing right after a class of bullshit, but being passive isn't the hardest thing I've had to do. I cool off here.

I finally have to give my own monologue, i read it, this time being given chairs and someone to read to (the admittedly very cute nice girl, and that's not just a personal opinion), and my monologue was a soft, more sensitive one than most I've had to do, and i felt a bit better than the first few times I've done this. I sit down and see what it looked like (we were doing on camera so we could watch our own performance afterword) and my first thought was, "oh god. I am UGLY on camera!".

So yeah, GREAT DAY SO FAR.

Normally as far as my face i either don't get any comments, or i told I'm cute, so i figure I'm average, and good for some peoples tastes. That's one area where I'm not super down on myself. Something about my appearance however looked like i was soaked, flat hair, shiny face...

Normally our teacher asks us what we think of our performance first, then what everyone else thought, but he switched it today.

People fucking loved it. As far as my voice, sure i think i was good, but for some reason people just loved it. Very surprising. They even mentioned a lot of things i was trying to make sure came out well, sincerity, eye contact etc. Not that i cant do those, just they were important for this piece.

Then on the "Things to improve on" section, the most commonly agreed thing was, "It was too seductive".

... Excuse me? Repeat that? I have been called "Cute", i have been called "Scary, or intimidating" (I know, weird combo), but "Seductive"?!

So yeah, I'm still a little dazed on that, so ill just move on, because i have no flipping idea on where to start talking about that. By the way, the monologue was in no way seductive, but for some reason i couldn't read it in a way that didn't get that note. Lets just say this whole class has helped my ego quite a lot though.

So then we get to the last class of the day, Acting 10 B. We also happened to be doing monologues in that class, but i had to use different ones, and i had to have 2, which were contrasting to one another. The format for today was to just read and people would call out "Yes", "No" or "Not for you, but maybe for someone else".

I have to admit, i didn't listen to the others as much as i would normally. I just kept reading mine in my head. It was a joker monologue, as batman joker, a monologue from one of the games. Our teach said i should have others ready (which i did), and try to not imitate the joker himself, because this would be hard to do considering how popular he is.

By the way, The Joker is my favorite villain, and i love to play villains, and never get the opportunity, which is why i chose this. I'm more the "Sweet, Nerdy" type, so though i can do villain, people don't think that immediately and i don't get those parts.

Finally we get to me, I'm standing, get my breath...

"Memories can be vile, r-"

Class explodes with "YES, DO IT"

Holy fucking shit.

I mean really, holy fucking shit you guys.

They calm themselves down because THEY WANT TO HEAR THE REST. I do it all, they say they love me as that role, and THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS. I managed to make it my own so well they don't realize its the joker, and they just love me as the role.

I'm fucking dead you guys, that was it. I'm "Cast" as joker, and they don't even realize. Jesus. Christ.

So Leslie (our teacher) says she loves it too, but it would be better for voice acting than a monologue, and i should do others. That's fine, i have others prepared. One is funny, telling a random story, really interesting, and i get some nice/funny character voices in it, and people really liked it. The other is the sweet, vulnerable type which was a bit hard, because it really made me feel vulnerable, but i really liked it, and it got cleared too.

So monologues are crossed of my To Do list, I got some pretty good ones, and people love me as my favorite villain, villain being my favorite role. Good class to say the least.

Then meet up with friends to talk because WE LEAVE FOR BABSCON IN 2 DAYS.

I didn't get back until like, 8:30 pm i think, having left at 8:00 am, so it was a long day, and started out with total shit, and even so, it was a great fucking day. I even realized that on the self esteem issue - not just because of today, but today certainly helped - i feel comfortable calling myself "An Actor". In fact, a good actor. I have big self esteem issues, and with nobody around, i call myself a good actor, especially when it comes to voice.

Speaking of Babscon and voice acting, they still haven't announced who the finalists are for their contest to be judge by Tara flipping Strong. -,-

So yeah, i have had a long to do list lately, which I'm almost at the end of, and i now have one day to finish packing for Babscon, so I'm tired and busy, which i have been for a bit now, but I'm going to a con with friends that have only become the "Actually hang out with each other" friends a few months ago (and happy to have them as such), i feel like i have a place in acting, I have been told that i could do both a discord voice, and jokers monologue well (which, for both, holy crap i love it), and who knows, i don't want to get my hopes up too high, but i still may be a finalist for The Voice of Equestria.

Right now, I'm happy. And i don't mean, "Got an awesome new video game" happy, i mean, "Even after the dust clears, and things settle down again, i think im still happy with myself as a person" happy. "Stop giving myself crap, and actually recognize i don't deserve to hate myself" happy.

This means a lot to me. And almost symbolically, nobody is online to talk to during this. Its kind of funny actually.

And don't worry about that last part, its Tuesday and i got home late, people just aren't up to talking right now. I'm not going to let that ruin my mood.

Also i might as well mention, I'm taking figure drawing to be with friends, so whereas I'm trying to pass this class, if i don't it wont be the end of the world.

And yeah. I'm actually proud of my ability and range from hearing peoples reactions to both, the monologues and my Babscon voice entry (in which i do multiple different voice characters). I think i can actually say "Im good at something that matters", for the first time in my life.

Holy shit, big day.