You know what my friend ! I have those same feelings often times !  

will I be able to go to a good collage?, will I be able to get a good job as a result of collage?, will collage be a waste of time because I won't be able to find what profession I want to work in?, will I be able to get a good job to begin with or wind up a deadbeat?, will my videos on Youtube become somewhat popular?, will I be able to improve my social skills?, will I do good on that exam and essay tomorrow? ,will I be able to improve my writing skills enough for me to be proud of myself?

 

If I think about my future I see lot of those same questions and i don't have answer to any of them. It sometimes feels that maybe I fail at my life maybe I live in streets after couple years but I don't let that drive me down. I stopped thinkin about my future completely while ago. I just let the things go on their own weight . It helps me to be lot happier when I don't need to worry about the future all the time X)

If you feel like it you can always message me so we can talk C:

Well that's not something I've thought about in a long, long time.

There was a time when I used to think those things. Every day was just one worry after another. Every afternoon, I'd shut the world out, sit in my room, and try to forget it all. Yep, seems about right.

There are a few tricks I've learned over the years. You just need a new mindset. Once you have that, you're golden. It's not so bad for me to deal with anymore; so... see if you can figure out the pattern, here.

For example, one night I was up till about 1:00 AM I think, thinking about what would happen if my older brother was set to be married to someone he loved, but she was a jerk to the family, and how I would react to this.

 

It's his life. You've gotta let him make his own decisions. If he ends up marrying someone you don't like, you're just going to have to get along and deal with it.

Today, while I was walking to school and passed by two people, I thought what would happen if they pulled out a gun and shot me from behind, how I would get help would I die?

 

1. You could turn around and kick their asses.

2. You could die.

3. You could be seriously injured and not die, but have to live with those injuries.

Does it really matter what happens? Either outcome isn't good, but there's no reason to fear dying like that. If you're dead, then you don't exist. If you don't exist, then you can't have a problem.

These matters include school, which is kind of expected out of pretty much the majority of high-schoolers like myself, how I'm being perceived by the people around me, will I be able to go to a good collage?

 

And is there a such thing as a bad college?

I went to a sucky college right after high school. It was cheaper, I didn't work as hard, and I still learned the same material that I would have been learning anyway. Oh, and by the way, going there also gave me a free ticket into a better school. Not literally, but basically.

will I be able to get a good job as a result of collage?

 

That depends on what kind of job you want, and what the market looks like.

will collage be a waste of time because I won't be able to find what profession I want to work in?

 

Not necessarily. Take a few of the general education classes—you'll need those credits, anyway. Look around, see what you like. Try talking to people with different majors and find out what they think. College is supposed to be a learning experience, and that includes learning just what it is that you want to study.

will I be able to get a good job to begin with or wind up a deadbeat?

 

That depends. What would you consider a good job?

More than likely, you'll probably have a few jobs before you find one you really like. But in any case, just know that no matter what happens, you'll have the freedom to decide what you want to do. These aren't questions that have to be answered immediately. Life is a trial and error process; if something doesn't work out, you just try something else, y'know?

will my videos on Youtube become somewhat popular?

 

Maybe. How much effort are you willing to put into that?

will I be able to improve my social skills?

 

Consider this. Do you want to improve your social skills? Are you willing to put in the time and effort to improve them?

will I do good on that exam and essay tomorrow?

 

Just do your best. You can't do more.

will I be able to improve my writing skills enough for me to be proud of myself?

 

As long as you keep working at it, yes.

And that's just the thoughts that I can remember right now off the top of my head. As you can probably tell, a lot of these concerns are irrational, but that doesn't change the fact that I consistently have these types of thoughts.

 

Yeah, I know. I've been there before.

But, just look at it this way. There's something that you're not realizing—something I did not realize until I was much older than you are. Once you see this, you're never going to look at the world in the same way again.

Let's just have a little analogy here. Suppose it's some kind of holiday, and you're getting a new video game.  Eagerly you unwrap it, put the disc in, and wait for it to install. As it's installing, you flip through the owner's manual. This tells you about the locations in the game, the types of guns and ammunition, and all the vehicles you can use on the battlefield. It tells you about your enemies, their tactics, and gives you suggestions for countering them.

You look up at the installation bar and start to get nervous. Is this a game that you'll be able to beat? What happens if you die? What do you do? How are you going to... you get the idea.

You see, that's kinda like what you're doing. You haven't even started playing the game, and you're already worrying about how you're going to do it. You're looking ahead to see what you might expect, and it seems incredibly daunting. I know. I get it. I was there, too.

But... what you don't see is that you're going to fail. There. I said it. Of course you're going to die. Of course you're going to start playing this game and get your ass kicked by hundreds and hundreds of enemies who have better weapons, armor, and so on. You're going to fall. You're going to get frustrated. At some point, there will be a time when it all seems so overwhelming that you'll want to give up.

But you'll keep at it. You'll keep playing. The first time, the machine gun didn't work. Your health was too low, you weren't fast enough, and you ran out of ammo. So next, you tried looking for other weapons to pick up. Grenades didn't work. The sniper rifle didn't work. But maybe, if you try using a flamethrower, that will give you the advantage you need. So, you do that....

And it works.

Yeah. You failed the first time. You failed hundreds of freaking times. But you know what? Eventually, you figured it out. You found a way through, and you pulled it off. You beat the game. You became stronger. Through all the challenges you faced, you became a better player, unmatched for any challenge. Now, you can fight outnumbered and outgunned, and it's no problem. You've put so much time into the game, that you could call yourself a pro.

This game is no different from life.

Yeah, you're gonna screw some things up. Yeah, there will be times when you'll really struggle to get through. But in the end, it'll all work out okay. In the end, you'll become a stronger and wiser person. You'll have learned from your experiences. You'll look back, and realize how much you've improved.

Hopefully that should help calm your fears a little.