Been awhile since I last added an entry. Not much happened other than had the whole Hero Frozen Factor thing cleared. Been too busy typing and editing.

Anywho been depressed recently. Started with the fact that my hourglass on age 24 is winding down. It is nigh less than 24 hrs until the unfortunate day I was born.

I hate that day for many reasons. It reminds me that I'm one step closer to the reapers door, many people in my life have made that event feel like a mistake, my anger problem makes me question wether or not I should exist, etc, etc. I really don't care, I just want it over.

The other thing that killed my mood was Advanced Warfare. I played the campaign and got deep enough emotionally into to set my spirit ablaze. That felt too good. As it burned out so did my mood for the night. I'm so used to it being on all the time and since earlier this year this empty hole that randomly gets filled and emptied like a sink is pretty depressing.

I had a dream that night that I was back in the place where my spirit burned brightest. Everyone there was being attacked and nothing I could do could save them. Luna showed up and instead of accepting her help and waking, I chased her off.

I told her that it was MY dream, MY unconsciosness, MY home, MY duty to defend. Lulu left and I let the darkest part of my mind reign which served only to make things worse. The next day I was pretty much a zombie that responded to electronics that were in front of me.

Anywho I'm over that but still kinda down about the b-day.

Elsewhere:

Same Crep. Different Plane.

Went through a month of being H.F.F., got to spend time with the kids, and now I'm caged. Betrayed by everypony close to me in this plane.

Somehow Pie had got wind of my b-day. The rest of the gang, including my M.F. hatched a scheme to prevent me from taking off just so a party can be had. I shoulda known better than to have stayed as long as I had within a civilized bit of turf.

Right now we're in 'Lot and my cage is under lock and key just to make sure none of my bonds comes and inadvertantly let's me escape. Not even the princesses themselves are allowed to get within my prison cell of a guest room unless the party is about to start or there's an extreme emergency.

It's ironic how they've nulliied every bit of power I have, excluding my spiirit, and yet they fear letting me loose. They treat me like they would otherwise but with tons of eyes on me. They know how smart I am and how instinctual my mind is.

It's for the best though. Somehow Pinks woulda gotten me to celebrate anyway, wether I liked it or not. Cursed soft heart of mine woulda folded at those puppy dog eyes she gives and that woulda been the end of it, unless I resisted to the point of hurting her emotionally but I'd still have caved.

Nopony likes having to entrap as they did. Rare's taking it the hardest. I could see it in those bottomless sapphire pools of hers. Every time somepony comes to check they always look like a kid who has to give their dog to a shelter.

It's okay though I ain't too upset with them. I can be VERY patient if the situation calls for it. I will avenge my imprisonment. I'll bury each and every one of them in an avalanch of snow just like I used to do back in the valley for my yearly winter prank. That'll show 'em....

Anywho I'mm go back to plotting my revenge and enjoying the re-opening of the emotional wounds while I wait for this Faust forsaken day is over.....