I have a B average in High School. My lowest grade is a D+ in Spanish. I try but I can't get anything higher than a C or D on the tests in that class. Freshman year, I failed three classes. Why? My mom had just gone to prison after being abused. Sophmore year, I failed German. Why? I was so far down in depression I couldn't concentrate. Junior year, I pass with no fails after getting out of depression. I feel like I've come far since Freshman year. But...why do I feel she hates me for it all? Why do I have this urge that she wishes she was with someone else? Why is it when I try to explain, I get more depressed? I love her. More than anything...Am I an idiot?