I know how you feel. My family has kept me out of all social interaction ( they wouldn't even let me on these forums if they knew I came here. ) I too realize my early years as an adult will be more difficult for it.

Yeah when my mom was around I couldn't be on the forums when she was nearby, she didn't want me talking to anyone online

I can relate to how you feel as well. I'm 18 now but I've been away from others for a while. I didn't respond to phone calls from my parents and others and isolated myself from other students. I didn't really know my roommate nor did i know anyone else. I'm out of college now after i was brought to a mental facility for depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. I'm going back in the summer but i haven't experience anything other teens my age experienced like friendship, dating, or other things teens do nowadays, i wouldn't know. I'm getting better but the forums have helped me keep the thoughts away and although i sometimes have them, take advice from me. Please try to live your life the best you can, and don't let anyone stop you. You may only have one chance to do it. I hope you feel better and find ways to live your life better where you are happy.

There's no way I can enjoy those lost experiences, I'll have to pay bills and all and get two jobs to survive, I also want to go to acting school so I'll be too busy to socialize

There's no way I can enjoy those lost experiences, I'll have to pay bills and all and get two jobs to survive, I also want to go to acting school so I'll be too busy to socialize

I won't get to have a completely normal life till I'm grown either, since my mom can't leave until I'm 18. In my church going to our temples is very important and a truly wonderful experience, but it's not worth it to my mom because of the consequences she and I will both probably get from my dad :/ And I haven't had a normal life, period. Once I'm 18, I'll have to get out in the world and try to find out what a real family does and how they act and stuff...XP because my life is NOTHING like a normal life, at all. We don't even eat at the same table anymore because of a dander problem that my dad refuses to fix to spite my mom (even though his own health is compromised).

Trust me I know how you feel. I haven't had a normal life at all either

Trust me I know how you feel. I haven't had a normal life at all either

And now my mom is freaking out again about money because we don't have enough for everything we need and my dad is just refusing to pay his part and there's just nothing we can do about it, literally nothing...You know, I've been strangely feeling a bit more mature these days, and I think maybe it was for a reason :/ This crap is getting real now, more so than it's really ever been, and I'm going to need this new mindset that's starting to take over my don't-care-about-what-I-do-in-a-day previous mindset. Now's the time when I NEED to turn razor-sharp focus on both of my upcoming "careers," my Etsy business and animation which I'm going to start on tomorrow, I got Anime Studio Debut 9 for "free" with my Intuos Manga tablet so I'll be using that and working on getting myself out there...hopefully this Etsy business will start cashing at some point soon so that when my mom completely runs out of money *which WILL happen before she leaves my dad* I'll be able to help at least a tiny amount, and hopefully the animation thing will get known on the Internet and lead to a bigger career with that in the future cause I know I'll get no inheritance-type money.

So tomorrow I'm going to start trying to better manage my time, e.g. instead of spending time just sitting and watching a Markiplier video, I'll watch it and work on something for Etsy or an animation at the same time. All this time I've never been truly serious about life...now I need to get serious about this stuff and start being more efficient at "life-ing," not just in managing my time as a 14-year-old who likes to spend time watching videos on Youtube and stuff, but in setting up my future as well.

Good grief, my life is weird. :/

I was in the same situation you're in now when my mom was around I felt horrible when she lost her job and started developing her cancer because I wanted to help her financially but I couldn't I was only 13 at that time and I couldn't get a job until I was 16. Then shortly after turning 14 I found a babysitting job and made my mom proud of my willingness to help any way I could until we moved It was definitely tough having to face possible eviction due to not paying the rent on time since she had to borrow money from her friends but it definitely helped me mature alot