I've been thinking about my idol, Emilie Chatelet.

And recently i've been looking after her philosophical contributions to logic and i think. Where is my contribution? I'm starting one right now called "The formations of beauty". It explains how the cultures of beauty shows in different types of manner. Realistically, my philosophical skills are certainly not up to par and i've been self-taught so far. Emilie had an education by scholars but i venture to complete mines on my own. I need to learn to grow my skills without instruction with only the inspiration of past philosophers and scientists. But there is also another person who i admire.

Thomas Young.

Not as a philosopher but as a scientist. His work on the double slit problem showed significant intelligence as a prodigy and one of the wonders of human beings. But another thing. He had a quote that said: "Whoever would arrive at excellence must be self-taught. There is, in reality, very little that a person who is serious and industriously disposed to improve may not obtain from books with more advantage than from a living instructor." I wish to adhere to that statement as much as i can but one thing. I'm not him. Nor Emilie. I have ADHD and i sometimes can't handle distractions while reading or when i read, my working memory isn't good but i try still.

Now, after i discharged from the mental facility for depression,(the reason was i was trying to live up to past people like these and be a success like them but to no avail) I was taught to not try to be them as they are already dead and they are but a memory. I should be my own person and try my best to become what i strive to be. And that is what My Little Pony episodes taught me especially testing, testing, 1,2,3. I learned that everyone has different studying habits and something they are good at so to my progress, enhance that ability and be glad to have it.

Essentially, i still look up to these past people as my mentors but i need to learn to live my life.