Thought I would be asleep by now but I am still up for some reason. Probably thinking which creates anxiety which creates not sleeping..ness. I wrote a new game review so um....yay? Beyond that it has been thinking of random things, and because I am tired depression has sorta set in as well, but only in the way of thinking I am useless. Like asking the question 'Do I really provide anything to the world at all?' It seems most often I would say no but it seems many would disagree so there is that. I want to look at each day with excitement but with many things it is difficult to do now, anxiety really is what makes is difficult to the extreme. I remember back in the day, when I would stay up late and of course I had no internet, I would get extremely lonely. To the point of not being able to sleep, but then I would stay up until I could see sunlight and it would make me think, it is a new day. I can be excited about that. Over the years though that has been getting so hard to do, for reasons I am sure many of you know by now. I talk about it all too much really, but I guess rambling about it is better than...being saddened by it? That kinda happens anyway but rambling does help. I often yearn for that feeling of my childhood, I want that feeling for many things in my life these days.It is just rough.

This is just me rambling in a tired stupor. I think I should lay down, try to relax and go to sleep, so I may attempt that.