If I speak my voice is usually soft compared to others in the room. No matter how hard I try I can't make people pleased or happy. This affected my self esteem and anxiety pretty badly to the point that I decided to seek counseling for it to find a way to help solve this issue. Counseling isn't always for everyone and it isn't easy to open up. In a way it helped me to be more independent and be free to ask about how to learn communication but not give out too much personal information. Continue gradually to focus on seeking people who do care what you have to say and remember to not let negative thoughts or individuals affect your self esteem.